Post by Marcydel on Mar 15, 2020 2:42:51 GMT
Hello. I hope everyone is well, psychologically and physically.
So.... I’ve gone completely cold turkey from everything related to MD (that I can control) since Wednesday. I’m shooting for maybe two weeks, just to see what happens. I’ve been meaning to pull through with the old “cold turkey” method for about two years, but I guess I finally got the willpower. I’m not physically abstaining from MD for the sake of permanently stopping it by willpower for the rest of my life, I guess I believe that there’s a meaning to MD, like it’s there for a reason. And the first step is uncovering that reason, so I can finally deal with it and move on at last.
From sources that claimed to have overcome MD (that I personally believe), abstaining from MD may give me some insight into why I do it in the first place, for example: underlying depression, anxiety, loneliness, etc. The idea is that the “tension” builds up until I can’t ignore it anymore and my body (or brain, whatever) eventually stops being physically dependent on/expectant of the “MD high” for compensation purposes. Then, hopefully, if I resist from looking for another defense mechanism, I’ll finally get to face whatever caused me to start to MD in the first place. I don’t know if that’s the exact mechanics of it, but I’m still giving it a shot.
So.... I’ve gone completely cold turkey from everything related to MD (that I can control) since Wednesday. I’m shooting for maybe two weeks, just to see what happens. I’ve been meaning to pull through with the old “cold turkey” method for about two years, but I guess I finally got the willpower. I’m not physically abstaining from MD for the sake of permanently stopping it by willpower for the rest of my life, I guess I believe that there’s a meaning to MD, like it’s there for a reason. And the first step is uncovering that reason, so I can finally deal with it and move on at last.
From sources that claimed to have overcome MD (that I personally believe), abstaining from MD may give me some insight into why I do it in the first place, for example: underlying depression, anxiety, loneliness, etc. The idea is that the “tension” builds up until I can’t ignore it anymore and my body (or brain, whatever) eventually stops being physically dependent on/expectant of the “MD high” for compensation purposes. Then, hopefully, if I resist from looking for another defense mechanism, I’ll finally get to face whatever caused me to start to MD in the first place. I don’t know if that’s the exact mechanics of it, but I’m still giving it a shot.
