I fell in love with a man almost two decads ago. It felt like he was my soulmate. Since we never became a couple, but were so special to eachother, we are very good friends, even until today.
I got maried to so else, and I have a toddler. My husband is good to me and we are happy. But the feelings were never like the feelings I had for the soulmate guy.
For almost two decades, I am daydreaming about him every day. Like the intense MDD way of daydreaming. I think you know what I mean. It is a part of me. But he is not just the person in my dreams, he is a real person too and that makes it so hard. When he has a new partner, its like hell to me.
Does anyone mixed up love and MDD ? Its a bad combination...
I know I don't really understand how you feel because I'm still only 20, but when I was in 6th grade I met this boy and I think he might have liked me and I liked him. I definitely thought he was the only one for me. I changed schools after that, but I kept we were still meant to be together and I would daydream about him all the time. I thought somehow I got to get us to meet again to become actual friends and then we end up together. The daydreams took over my life and all my time. Between then and college, I was in an online school, and so I didn't really meet any other guys. One time I met this guy at a state test though that made me forget about him and develop a very short (like literally just during the testing time) crush. I felt very bad about it whenever I got attached like that. When I was at home I would sometimes consider friendships in my new school or at tests like that, but usually I was stuck on re-meeting my old friends and love interest. When I started college I stopped about meeting him so much and I eventually started liking this other guy. For a while now I realized that the original guy wasn't my soulmate because my feelings move on to other people when I'm given the opportunity to meet others. I'm actually pretty unhappy about it because it feels the same, so I feel that maybe I really haven't found real love yet because it is not unique to one person. But I definitely can relate to that constant daydreaming about that soulmate. Unfortunately, it's not really the same for me because I don't daydream about him all the time anymore (though I do sometimes, old habits die hard) and I don't really feel like he was my soulmate anymore. I do remember though how miserable it was in those times when I would think what if he's got a girlfriend, what if he's sleeping with people who used to be my friends? I couldn't take it. I wrote lots of songs for him and those mourning our lost opportunity. I just couldn't really move on from him that whole time. I really don't know what advice to give you because I'm at the point where I realized he wasn't really my soulmate, it was just that I never met anybody else who took my interest when he was removed from my life, but you've met someone else and the one that you feel is your soulmate is still in your life. I hope you find some way to work it out and resolve your internal conflict.
Hi. I'm still single so I probably don't know how you really feel 100% but there is this guy that I like for almost 6 years now. I find it absurd since I haven't seen him for 4 years, ever since we started college. But I still think of him and daydream about him. He was my classmate in high school. He tried flirting with me but I was so scared that he's just probably toying with my feelings so I always avoided him. I had this standard set based on what I usually see in movies and read in books. I always thought that guys would act the same way in real life. But now that I've gotten older, I realized that he was just being playful and carefree, and doesn't necessarily mean he's not being sincere. So after years of trying to understand myself, I came into conclusion that the reason I couldn't let him go is because there could have been something between us. But I didn't let that happen. And so I have many what ifs in my mind right now. I don't know the full details of your story with this guy, but could it be that you can't fully move on from him because you have some regrets, just like me?
I kinda get it. I met my wife. We married. We had kids. It’s all fine. It’s hurtful sometimes. It’s kind of lonely.
I watched a movie, which I really identified with and I think the characters are probably md’ers. (Maybe I’m just putting that on them) Do you remember that moment when a persons heart flips and you fall in love? Well... I saw that and it made me realize no one would ever look at me like that again. I then decided to fix my marriage. Make it what I really wanted. Read books. Voiced feelings asked to do counseling. It failed miserably. I’ve accepted it is what it is. Not my choice. I can stay or leave. That’s the choice isn’t it?