eror
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Post by eror on May 4, 2020 23:30:44 GMT
...yeah, lol.
So, a bit of an update on myself. Last time I posted here I was set on quitting MDing. I only lasted a few days without it and then ended up falling back into depression (have since been trying to find a med that will work better for me, and going to therapy). The whole ordeal only taught me how much I rely on MDing. It's my way of escaping from reality and from myself, sure, but even more importantly it's how I manage stress. It's how I unwind at the end of the day. It's an easy way to ease anxiety and it's an easy way to get a dopamine rush when I'm depressed. When I go without it my mind inevitably feels more cluttered and anxious, and I can't stop thinking about how much I want to MD. My current environment is a bit stressful right now so I have no plans to try to quit again till I go to university. Daydreaming is something I need.
Anyways, on to the story! Last night I was having an MD session as I usually do (listening to music and pacing around my room in circles) and I'm getting pretty caught up in some fast paced music, imagining a fight scene. And then it happens. I jump on my foot, it lands improperly and rolls, I fall and..... I'm in excruciating pain. I drag myself into my bed and even though I'm in pain I'm more annoyed that I won't be able to MD for the rest of the night. So I go to sleep, hoping that tomorrow the pain will have subsided enough that I can walk without limping and MD again.
I wake up and my foot still hurts. I get out of bed and test my weight on it and I can barely walk. I've hurt myself while MDing before, but this time it was obvious that it was something more serious. So, my mom takes me to the clinic and they x-ray it, confirm that I fractured a bone, and give me a boot to wear.
And now I'm not going to be able to have a proper MD session for at least 4 weeks, if not longer. The thought is already driving me a bit crazy.
Does anyone have tips for dealing with stress? I think the exercise portion of my sessions was crucial to the stress relief, but I'm not even sure what else I can do since I can't risk straining my foot and breaking it worse. Obviously I can still daydream while staying still but it's just not the same without being able to move my body.
Would greatly appreciate if anyone has any ideas. Or tips for exercising? Lol (I'm worried that if I don't find a new way to cope, I'll end up pacing again even though I'm in pain and risking breaking it worse. My MD pacing sessions are really important to me.)
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Post by granger on May 5, 2020 0:01:54 GMT
Maybe you can try moving back and forth while sitting. You really need to give that foot some rest . Although i have heard of many people banging their head or something, this is the first time i have heard that someone actually broke their foot. When i get too deep into an action or angry scene i clench my fists and sometimes swing it too. Luckily no one has seen me doing it. Abstaining doesn't work for me either. Its like when i abstain by sheer will, the urge starts building up inside me and finally it comes crashing down followed by an intense md session. Hope your foot heals fast.
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Post by Sam on May 5, 2020 3:14:21 GMT
...yeah, lol. So, a bit of an update on myself. Last time I posted here I was set on quitting MDing. I only lasted a few days without it and then ended up falling back into depression (have since been trying to find a med that will work better for me, and going to therapy). The whole ordeal only taught me how much I rely on MDing. It's my way of escaping from reality and from myself, sure, but even more importantly it's how I manage stress. It's how I unwind at the end of the day. It's an easy way to ease anxiety and it's an easy way to get a dopamine rush when I'm depressed. When I go without it my mind inevitably feels more cluttered and anxious, and I can't stop thinking about how much I want to MD. My current environment is a bit stressful right now so I have no plans to try to quit again till I go to university. Daydreaming is something I need. Anyways, on to the story! Last night I was having an MD session as I usually do (listening to music and pacing around my room in circles) and I'm getting pretty caught up in some fast paced music, imagining a fight scene. And then it happens. I jump on my foot, it lands improperly and rolls, I fall and..... I'm in excruciating pain. I drag myself into my bed and even though I'm in pain I'm more annoyed that I won't be able to MD for the rest of the night. So I go to sleep, hoping that tomorrow the pain will have subsided enough that I can walk without limping and MD again. I wake up and my foot still hurts. I get out of bed and test my weight on it and I can barely walk. I've hurt myself while MDing before, but this time it was obvious that it was something more serious. So, my mom takes me to the clinic and they x-ray it, confirm that I fractured a bone, and give me a boot to wear. And now I'm not going to be able to have a proper MD session for at least 4 weeks, if not longer. The thought is already driving me a bit crazy. Does anyone have tips for dealing with stress? I think the exercise portion of my sessions was crucial to the stress relief, but I'm not even sure what else I can do since I can't risk straining my foot and breaking it worse. Obviously I can still daydream while staying still but it's just not the same without being able to move my body. Would greatly appreciate if anyone has any ideas. Or tips for exercising? Lol (I'm worried that if I don't find a new way to cope, I'll end up pacing again even though I'm in pain and risking breaking it worse. My MD pacing sessions are really important to me.) It really sucks that you broke your foot. I can understand relying on that exercise you get from pacing. Maybe try, like, arm movement while daydreaming instead? As for not being able to go cold turkey, its important that you find other healthy coping skills before trying. MD is a coping mechanism for a lot of us, often the only (or at least the most effective) one we have, so depriving ourselves of that much-needed thing is nearly impossible to bear. Once you've developed and become more comfortable with other coping skills, it will be easier to let go of your daydreaming because you don't need to rely on it for coping so much.
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