Post by char on Jun 7, 2020 18:59:11 GMT
Hello everyone,
I just want to start by saying that I just found this forum and it is already helpful to know that there are other people out there, who are going trough similar things. So I'm just gonna throw out my thoughts and feelings in this post.
I'm
if my daydreaming has become maladaptive yet, but I'm afraid that it will be. I have always had a big imagination, but lately I feel like it is interfering with my schoolwork. In high school I was always trying to get the highest grade I possibly could (and with success). My first year of university was similar to my high school experience, but ever since halfway through this year (my second year of uni) I am enjoying my own world more and more. And because of it, I have been procrastinating my schoolwork to a point where I would be kind of happy with a passing grade. I am behind on a couple of classes with a big test in 4 days. And I still can't seem to get myself to do schoolwork. Luckily, since I found out that there are more people with MD and that it can become worse, I have become more aware of my daydreams. I said luckily, but it is also kind of frustrating, because I know I should be doing schoolwork (or chores) but I just don't want to stop daydreaming because I like it so much.
When I daydream it can be about things that can happen (or already happened) in real life or it can be completely unrealistic (since I also like to watch sci-fi or fantasy movies or series or read those kind of books). A lot of the time it is not that deep and someone making a sound can get me out of it, but I catch myself making facial expressions more often and I think it might be a sign that the MD is becoming worse.
I already know some ways that might make me do more schoolwork (for example I have watched the video on the dopamine detox (posted on the forum)) and I am trying to do them, but I really enjoy daydreaming and why would I stop doing something that I really like... (Because I have to graduate in order to get a job and stuff, I know). Today I walked into my room and I knew I had to go to my desk and do schoolwork, but I wanted to sit down and daydream so bad that I got so
I had to do the work that I almost started crying so I know I have to deal with it now.
I still go to the pool (I'm a synchronized swimmer) a couple times a week and talk/meet up (when allowed) with friends. But with more reluctance than I would like. I feel like I should do more in the actual world, but I like my own too much and I don't know how to change that. I hoped writing it all down would help, and it did so I'm gonna write down one more thing.
The last thing that I started to notice after becoming aware of my daydreams is that I find it really hard to talk about it. I used to be really close with my parents, but I feel like I'm drifting apart from them (and I don't like it). Also, only one friend knows (since she was with me when I figured out that is was a real disorder) and I don't want to bother my other friends with it, because they also have their own problems to deal with and I don't want to add up on that. But I'm also afraid that if I don't talk about it, everything will build up and become worse.
It really helped writing this all down and I think I will come to this forum more often. Thank you if you read it and if you have any tips on any of the above I would love to hear them. xoxo
I just want to start by saying that I just found this forum and it is already helpful to know that there are other people out there, who are going trough similar things. So I'm just gonna throw out my thoughts and feelings in this post.
I'm
if my daydreaming has become maladaptive yet, but I'm afraid that it will be. I have always had a big imagination, but lately I feel like it is interfering with my schoolwork. In high school I was always trying to get the highest grade I possibly could (and with success). My first year of university was similar to my high school experience, but ever since halfway through this year (my second year of uni) I am enjoying my own world more and more. And because of it, I have been procrastinating my schoolwork to a point where I would be kind of happy with a passing grade. I am behind on a couple of classes with a big test in 4 days. And I still can't seem to get myself to do schoolwork. Luckily, since I found out that there are more people with MD and that it can become worse, I have become more aware of my daydreams. I said luckily, but it is also kind of frustrating, because I know I should be doing schoolwork (or chores) but I just don't want to stop daydreaming because I like it so much.When I daydream it can be about things that can happen (or already happened) in real life or it can be completely unrealistic (since I also like to watch sci-fi or fantasy movies or series or read those kind of books). A lot of the time it is not that deep and someone making a sound can get me out of it, but I catch myself making facial expressions more often and I think it might be a sign that the MD is becoming worse.
I already know some ways that might make me do more schoolwork (for example I have watched the video on the dopamine detox (posted on the forum)) and I am trying to do them, but I really enjoy daydreaming and why would I stop doing something that I really like... (Because I have to graduate in order to get a job and stuff, I know). Today I walked into my room and I knew I had to go to my desk and do schoolwork, but I wanted to sit down and daydream so bad that I got so
I had to do the work that I almost started crying so I know I have to deal with it now.I still go to the pool (I'm a synchronized swimmer) a couple times a week and talk/meet up (when allowed) with friends. But with more reluctance than I would like. I feel like I should do more in the actual world, but I like my own too much and I don't know how to change that. I hoped writing it all down would help, and it did so I'm gonna write down one more thing.
The last thing that I started to notice after becoming aware of my daydreams is that I find it really hard to talk about it. I used to be really close with my parents, but I feel like I'm drifting apart from them (and I don't like it). Also, only one friend knows (since she was with me when I figured out that is was a real disorder) and I don't want to bother my other friends with it, because they also have their own problems to deal with and I don't want to add up on that. But I'm also afraid that if I don't talk about it, everything will build up and become worse.
It really helped writing this all down and I think I will come to this forum more often. Thank you if you read it and if you have any tips on any of the above I would love to hear them. xoxo
