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Post by forumusername on Jun 10, 2020 4:24:24 GMT
I've always had a pretty active imagination, I liked to daydream when I was younger or get lost in my thoughts. I used to daydream about characters from my little pony after watching equestria girls, arguably the first instance of my MD. But it was OK because they were characters that already existed and didn't affect my life too much. When I turned 13 I discovered kpop and embarrassing for me to admit I admired the artists, thought it was sparkles and gold. So I made my own people and created a universe. I am now 17. My perspective on the world is changing and for the worst, especially during corona virus when I am cooped up inside with no one I feel secure enough to talk to about it. I am insecure speaking to people about my problems because everyone has their own priorities and don't seem to care too much, I appreciate their kind words but they're empty which is why I don't bother. My universe is my escape, my characters are perfect versions of people, funny, smart etc. I can spend up to 14 hours a day daydreaming. But it's gotten worse, I can't stop. I don't sleep regularly anymore either, I sleep every 1 day and stay awake the next because I want to do work but end up day dreaming. I don't like school I don't like work and I don't like the world. My world is perfect and addictive. I don't know how to escape. It is triggered by my favourite kpop songs or favourite songs in general or creeps up in my thoughts every 2 minutes or so, I live through my characters. I can't do this anymore.
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Post by Sam on Jun 10, 2020 23:38:49 GMT
Welcome to the forum!
I'm sorry you feel uncomfortable talking to the people in your life. Just know that, if you want, you should always feel free to talk/vent here on the forum.
It might be connected to what you feel you can't talk about, but it would be worth it to figure out why you need to escape from real life. Most MDers use daydreaming as a coping mechanism. If you can figure out what you're trying to cope with, you might be able to address those issues in healthier ways.
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