Post by deann on Jul 2, 2020 2:03:02 GMT
I'm so happy that I've found this forum, I only recently found out about MD, and it has been such a relief because I honestly thought that I might be going crazy. I've been struggling with MD for a while now, but I never knew what it was. I could never fully explain it to my family and friends and when I did try, I always felt as if they never really understood me or how seriously this was impacting my daily life. I started researching my symptoms again recently, because within the pass year, it has gotten to an unbearable point.
It started a few years ago, I can't really pinpoint exactly when it started, but at first it was just a coping mechanism for my anxiety or a way to play out a fantasy of how I want my life to be either in the present or future, but now it's just out of control and I don't know how to stop it. I spend most of my day daydreaming and it's really has a negative effect on my grades and I risk failing my exams, but I just can't help myself.
Most of the time, it gets so intense that I start laughing or smiling, talking, making hand gestures and my family just says "Your doing it again" and I try so hard to stop but the more I try to force myself to focus, the more my head hurts or I feel more stressed. What was once a coping mechanism for my anxiety now sometimes causes me anxiety. Sometime I'm so engrossed in my dream that I forget where I am and what I should be doing, even when I'm in public, which I'm afraid could create an embarrassing situations.
Finally being able to put a name to what I'm experiencing and knowing that I'm not alone has made me feel so much better, It has lifted a small bit of what feels like a burden.
It started a few years ago, I can't really pinpoint exactly when it started, but at first it was just a coping mechanism for my anxiety or a way to play out a fantasy of how I want my life to be either in the present or future, but now it's just out of control and I don't know how to stop it. I spend most of my day daydreaming and it's really has a negative effect on my grades and I risk failing my exams, but I just can't help myself.
Most of the time, it gets so intense that I start laughing or smiling, talking, making hand gestures and my family just says "Your doing it again" and I try so hard to stop but the more I try to force myself to focus, the more my head hurts or I feel more stressed. What was once a coping mechanism for my anxiety now sometimes causes me anxiety. Sometime I'm so engrossed in my dream that I forget where I am and what I should be doing, even when I'm in public, which I'm afraid could create an embarrassing situations.
Finally being able to put a name to what I'm experiencing and knowing that I'm not alone has made me feel so much better, It has lifted a small bit of what feels like a burden.
