Post by noelle on Jul 9, 2020 23:22:54 GMT
I've only recently figured out what MD was and that other people experience it. It's been great to finally understand what I have and know that I'm not alone. I've noticed that other people get stuck in their daydreams throughout the day (like me) and that that can be very disruptive. But to me, that doesn't disturb me as much as the contents of my daydreams.
Whenever I MD, the daydreams are always about trauma and terrible things happening. It's like the worst things my mind can come up with, like my mind actively wants bad things to happen. Since most people daydream about idealistic situations, I don't understand why mine are so dark. The strong emotions that come with these traumatic things make the daydreams even stronger and harder for me to pull out of. I don't know how this started, since I don't really have major traumas in my childhood (at least not before the MD started). Maybe I just haven't seen anything about other people's dark daydreams yet, or maybe there's just more to my disorder than I know of. I know I would never act in a way that is dangerous to others, but I also know that if anyone could look into my mind, I'd be put into a mental hospital asap.
Whenever I MD, the daydreams are always about trauma and terrible things happening. It's like the worst things my mind can come up with, like my mind actively wants bad things to happen. Since most people daydream about idealistic situations, I don't understand why mine are so dark. The strong emotions that come with these traumatic things make the daydreams even stronger and harder for me to pull out of. I don't know how this started, since I don't really have major traumas in my childhood (at least not before the MD started). Maybe I just haven't seen anything about other people's dark daydreams yet, or maybe there's just more to my disorder than I know of. I know I would never act in a way that is dangerous to others, but I also know that if anyone could look into my mind, I'd be put into a mental hospital asap.
