Post by louise78 on Jul 14, 2020 22:41:14 GMT
I am glad I have found this forum as I have worked out that I am a very unhappy person.
When I was a kid I had real dreams and expectations. Only now these dreams and expectations are no longer real. In these uncertain times with Covid, the anxiety of losing a loved one to the disease or losing my job (part of my identity) has made the day dreams particularly difficult. I don't mean or want to have them, they just happen. I love listening to music but I find that my mind wonders when I do. If I listen to a
song, I day dream of how I would feel if someone I love died and it actually makes me cry, if I am listening to a happy song, I am doing well and get a great job and it makes me happy. When the reality sets back in, it is a relief in the case of the dreams but actually hurtful for the happy ones as they are not real. It is all very strange. I met my husband when I was 19 so I never really experienced going out much, meeting different people, going on dates etc...I sometimes day dream that I do and feel awfully guilty afterwards. I would love to aim for real dreams as I used to, but I find my life has always obstacles to achieve them. Am I nuts?
When I was a kid I had real dreams and expectations. Only now these dreams and expectations are no longer real. In these uncertain times with Covid, the anxiety of losing a loved one to the disease or losing my job (part of my identity) has made the day dreams particularly difficult. I don't mean or want to have them, they just happen. I love listening to music but I find that my mind wonders when I do. If I listen to a
song, I day dream of how I would feel if someone I love died and it actually makes me cry, if I am listening to a happy song, I am doing well and get a great job and it makes me happy. When the reality sets back in, it is a relief in the case of the dreams but actually hurtful for the happy ones as they are not real. It is all very strange. I met my husband when I was 19 so I never really experienced going out much, meeting different people, going on dates etc...I sometimes day dream that I do and feel awfully guilty afterwards. I would love to aim for real dreams as I used to, but I find my life has always obstacles to achieve them. Am I nuts?
