Post by sayali98 on Jul 18, 2020 16:55:37 GMT
Intro about myself:
Hey I'm Sayali, from India. I’m doing MA in ‘clinical Psychology’ (last year student). I’ve Maladaptive Daydreaming since from my childhood. On few months I been studying about MD. I did assessment based on 16 scale items of MD on me. I had discussed it to my parents about MD. I feel so much of satisfying after knowing about MD. I feel like I achieved everything after knowing about this wonderful condition related to 'self'.
Few words for describing my past...
During my career choosing period (2012-2014), I was very confused. At that time, it was more likely to be Fantasies. I developed more characters related to magic and got fascinated about movies like Twilight, Harry potter, cartoon movies etc. In that daydreaming there was so compulsivity. I was unable to focus on my studies, the lecturer was Infront of me and I was engaged on my own world. Later on my daydreaming became so weird, I imagined that some characters were doing rape on me (even at that time I hadn’t have idea about sexual things, and then also I was imagine such a things may be because of my adolescence age). That plot and characters were feeling like clear and vivid, I even imagine their voices too. The dialogues were so deep. I decided to take help of psychiatrist. Unluckily I was misdiagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder (2015-2019) and later on my Psychiatrist understood that it was imaginations (because I was constantly telling him, it is imagination not delusion, I can differentiate between real and my inner world). So he understood that and again misdiagnosed me as Bipolar type1, Borderline personality disorder (2019-2020). He wasn’t interested on my daydreaming. So during this 5-6 years I taken so many antipsychotics and antibipolar drugs. It was showing lots of side effects on me such as weight gain, skin sensitivity, increasing thrust, sleepiness etc. During this treatment my daydreaming was not stop, I wrote Novel based upon my daydreaming’s story, which I dint published.
And Now...
Now my daydreaming is related to future and not so vivid and clear, it getting blur. There are so many characters which are changes by time. I creates the character of boyfriend from 4-5 years but in real I don’t have a boyfriend. I learned lots of coping strategies related to daydreaming from my painful past. The doctor wasn’t tried to focus on my maladaptive daydreaming. The maladaptive behavior is really disturbing me, I unable follow the daily routine. Simultaneously I’m learning about Therapies I hope it would help to deal with maladaptive behavior. And now, I’m accepting myself as a Maladaptive Daydreamer. I’m enjoying my daydreaming, my thought process is be like this. So I don’t want to leave my daydreaming because I consider, it’s not any disorder that can suddenly get stop with medicine. On early morning I spend some of my time on daydreaming by listening a music while pacing. If there will be a problem while dealing with this condition like excessive/ severe daydreaming then I’ll take a medicine. But till now I consider it as normal, I can focus on my studies too. I’m so happy because I’m utilizing it as my skill not a problem.
My wish..
As I’m doing masters in Clinical Psychology, so after completing this course I want to do research on MD. I’ve wish to aware not only people but also the mental health professionals about MD. Because I’ve wish that "whatever I feel or realize about misdiagnosis of my condition that could not be a part of any other person’s life". Thank you so much for reading my story!!!
Hey I'm Sayali, from India. I’m doing MA in ‘clinical Psychology’ (last year student). I’ve Maladaptive Daydreaming since from my childhood. On few months I been studying about MD. I did assessment based on 16 scale items of MD on me. I had discussed it to my parents about MD. I feel so much of satisfying after knowing about MD. I feel like I achieved everything after knowing about this wonderful condition related to 'self'.
Few words for describing my past...
During my career choosing period (2012-2014), I was very confused. At that time, it was more likely to be Fantasies. I developed more characters related to magic and got fascinated about movies like Twilight, Harry potter, cartoon movies etc. In that daydreaming there was so compulsivity. I was unable to focus on my studies, the lecturer was Infront of me and I was engaged on my own world. Later on my daydreaming became so weird, I imagined that some characters were doing rape on me (even at that time I hadn’t have idea about sexual things, and then also I was imagine such a things may be because of my adolescence age). That plot and characters were feeling like clear and vivid, I even imagine their voices too. The dialogues were so deep. I decided to take help of psychiatrist. Unluckily I was misdiagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder (2015-2019) and later on my Psychiatrist understood that it was imaginations (because I was constantly telling him, it is imagination not delusion, I can differentiate between real and my inner world). So he understood that and again misdiagnosed me as Bipolar type1, Borderline personality disorder (2019-2020). He wasn’t interested on my daydreaming. So during this 5-6 years I taken so many antipsychotics and antibipolar drugs. It was showing lots of side effects on me such as weight gain, skin sensitivity, increasing thrust, sleepiness etc. During this treatment my daydreaming was not stop, I wrote Novel based upon my daydreaming’s story, which I dint published.
And Now...
Now my daydreaming is related to future and not so vivid and clear, it getting blur. There are so many characters which are changes by time. I creates the character of boyfriend from 4-5 years but in real I don’t have a boyfriend. I learned lots of coping strategies related to daydreaming from my painful past. The doctor wasn’t tried to focus on my maladaptive daydreaming. The maladaptive behavior is really disturbing me, I unable follow the daily routine. Simultaneously I’m learning about Therapies I hope it would help to deal with maladaptive behavior. And now, I’m accepting myself as a Maladaptive Daydreamer. I’m enjoying my daydreaming, my thought process is be like this. So I don’t want to leave my daydreaming because I consider, it’s not any disorder that can suddenly get stop with medicine. On early morning I spend some of my time on daydreaming by listening a music while pacing. If there will be a problem while dealing with this condition like excessive/ severe daydreaming then I’ll take a medicine. But till now I consider it as normal, I can focus on my studies too. I’m so happy because I’m utilizing it as my skill not a problem.
My wish..
As I’m doing masters in Clinical Psychology, so after completing this course I want to do research on MD. I’ve wish to aware not only people but also the mental health professionals about MD. Because I’ve wish that "whatever I feel or realize about misdiagnosis of my condition that could not be a part of any other person’s life". Thank you so much for reading my story!!!
. As I took 2nd opinions from 3 psychiatrist, they also diagnosed me same Schizophrenia. Because, In Schizophrenia, their is Delusions and Hallucinations, which may have chances to misdiagnose with MD BUT the major difference is Schizo- patients cant differentiate between reality (as we can) their is a firm belief (as we don't have) the sounds comes from external environment as schizo patients realizes ( in our world we can sometimes imagine a sounds, visual imaginary but its comes from inner mind) .