Post by kay1000 on Jul 26, 2020 23:51:19 GMT
Hi, I’m honestly kinda nervous to write stuff here because I know my MD is really serious but I’ve honestly never opened up about it to anyone. Guess getting out of your comfort zone is always nice right?
But um, I’m Kay I’m turning 20 in a month. I’ll find myself daydreaming for hours, creating characters and scenarios I like better than the ones I’m experiencing and escaping the world I’m in. I never thought of it as a coping mechanism I just thought I was weird but it’s literally been a coping mechanism since I was a toddler. It sucks sometimes honestly, I create this perfect world for a few minutes or hours where the things I desire most (specifically, love and someone who genuinely loves me) are all there and with me! I’m smiling to myself and making all the faces and sometimes murmuring to myself as i lose myself in this world. And then I have to come back to this reality and all of the happiness fades. So I try to go back into my head asap to feel good again. It really is a vicious cycle and I sometimes wish I could find happiness in the present world around me, but idk how... So yeah, it’s nice to be able to vent about this kind of stuff and see all of your responses so I know that I’m not alone. Thanks for hearin me out
But um, I’m Kay I’m turning 20 in a month. I’ll find myself daydreaming for hours, creating characters and scenarios I like better than the ones I’m experiencing and escaping the world I’m in. I never thought of it as a coping mechanism I just thought I was weird but it’s literally been a coping mechanism since I was a toddler. It sucks sometimes honestly, I create this perfect world for a few minutes or hours where the things I desire most (specifically, love and someone who genuinely loves me) are all there and with me! I’m smiling to myself and making all the faces and sometimes murmuring to myself as i lose myself in this world. And then I have to come back to this reality and all of the happiness fades. So I try to go back into my head asap to feel good again. It really is a vicious cycle and I sometimes wish I could find happiness in the present world around me, but idk how... So yeah, it’s nice to be able to vent about this kind of stuff and see all of your responses so I know that I’m not alone. Thanks for hearin me out
" wish they found it more troublesome. Maybe it could have been nipped in the bud if it was dealt with sooner. It's like I'm the dealer and the addict at the same time.