Continuously imagining conversations?
Aug 3, 2020 22:43:29 GMT
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Post by kadath on Aug 3, 2020 22:43:29 GMT
I have had the standard symptoms of MD, pacing and creating worlds or imagining experiences. I remember being very happy I could entertain myself regardless of where I went.
Mostly my problem is I continuously imaging talking to people, or communicating on the internet. When I listen to a song, I picture how friends or amyone would react to it and visualize the whole exchange. I even change the song based on what I think they'd have an interesting reaction too.
Sometimes when I'm stressed I picture the people around me griping about what I'm doing, and feel the emotional reaction and plan how to deal with it, even though 99 percent of the time it doesn't happen.
I have this a lot actually, and feel the stress, anger and anxiety of these situations progressing.
The parts that are the most distressing to me are that it seems to impair my interactions with others in ways I don't fully understand.
Sometimes it's like I pictured how a later convo would go I feel the need to stick to a script, and ignore reads or feel really uncomfortable if they don't react how I thought. I also feel like it makes my interactions with them stilted and awkward, maybe because I am trying to relieve anxiety by daydreaming and this feeds into it.
It can get very bad when I'm talking to someone, I lose all perspective of myself or what I'm saying and immerse myself in picturing what I'm talking about and my sentences are very poorly formed and not in tune with the convo. I also picture what they are going to say next and get into this weird limbo where the convo pulls me from the visualization and the visualization pulls me from the convo.
I imagine the next thing I'm going to do a lot, which would seem productive but I actually get that clumsiness and directionless wandering like I'm daydreaming, so I feel it is the same behavior.
It's funny because I had stopped myself before through willpower and thought this stuff was rumination and OCD. But then started again because I thought I was worried over nothing.
The pacing and imaginary world were what led me to MD, I am convinced this other stuff is as well but would like other opinions and possible correlative experiences. Thank you.
Mostly my problem is I continuously imaging talking to people, or communicating on the internet. When I listen to a song, I picture how friends or amyone would react to it and visualize the whole exchange. I even change the song based on what I think they'd have an interesting reaction too.
Sometimes when I'm stressed I picture the people around me griping about what I'm doing, and feel the emotional reaction and plan how to deal with it, even though 99 percent of the time it doesn't happen.
I have this a lot actually, and feel the stress, anger and anxiety of these situations progressing.
The parts that are the most distressing to me are that it seems to impair my interactions with others in ways I don't fully understand.
Sometimes it's like I pictured how a later convo would go I feel the need to stick to a script, and ignore reads or feel really uncomfortable if they don't react how I thought. I also feel like it makes my interactions with them stilted and awkward, maybe because I am trying to relieve anxiety by daydreaming and this feeds into it.
It can get very bad when I'm talking to someone, I lose all perspective of myself or what I'm saying and immerse myself in picturing what I'm talking about and my sentences are very poorly formed and not in tune with the convo. I also picture what they are going to say next and get into this weird limbo where the convo pulls me from the visualization and the visualization pulls me from the convo.
I imagine the next thing I'm going to do a lot, which would seem productive but I actually get that clumsiness and directionless wandering like I'm daydreaming, so I feel it is the same behavior.
It's funny because I had stopped myself before through willpower and thought this stuff was rumination and OCD. But then started again because I thought I was worried over nothing.
The pacing and imaginary world were what led me to MD, I am convinced this other stuff is as well but would like other opinions and possible correlative experiences. Thank you.
thank you, I was hoping to hear something like this, but wasn't going to expect it, let alone this soon! Very comforting to hear, but 
you are going through this as well.
I was shuttijg out a normal process because I had no idea this existed.
about a new topic, learn something new, when I accomplish something in real life and when I accomplish something in the real world. Another form of my interview daydreams are "lecture daydreams" where I just stand in front of a crowd or class and explain a concept.