Post by sofi16 on Aug 4, 2020 0:17:55 GMT
Hi I'm very new to discovering MD is a condition, I thought I was crazy!
I'm wondering if what I'm experiencing is MD so i'll let you know what I experience.
Scenarios will play out in my head some are more dramatic then others: some being a simple conversation, many involving serious things like death or illness.
However when I'm imagining these things i'll be whispering out loud or mouthing the words I'm saying in the daydream and I think I make the facial expressions and sometimes hand movements I would be making in the daydream. I will sit there for long periods of time having complex scenarios going on in my head but if someone saw me i would be mouthing words or whispering to a wall. People have seen me do this before and probably think I'm talking to myself (which I guess I am?). The people in the dreams used to be real people but I basically invented a whole new person out of this person by making them do things in scenarios they never would have done in real life and twisting into the person I wanted them to be rather than the person they were which kinda affected how I acted around them so recently I have been trying to make the people in my daydreams fictional.This has been so normal to me for years but within the past few months the dreams have become more regular and then I heard about this condition. People have suspected I have ADHD but I never got tested. I'm kinda wondering if I have it because I can control it in some ways and most of the time i can choose to stop and I only do it when I'm alone.
Happy to know I'm not alone!
I'm wondering if what I'm experiencing is MD so i'll let you know what I experience.
Scenarios will play out in my head some are more dramatic then others: some being a simple conversation, many involving serious things like death or illness.
However when I'm imagining these things i'll be whispering out loud or mouthing the words I'm saying in the daydream and I think I make the facial expressions and sometimes hand movements I would be making in the daydream. I will sit there for long periods of time having complex scenarios going on in my head but if someone saw me i would be mouthing words or whispering to a wall. People have seen me do this before and probably think I'm talking to myself (which I guess I am?). The people in the dreams used to be real people but I basically invented a whole new person out of this person by making them do things in scenarios they never would have done in real life and twisting into the person I wanted them to be rather than the person they were which kinda affected how I acted around them so recently I have been trying to make the people in my daydreams fictional.This has been so normal to me for years but within the past few months the dreams have become more regular and then I heard about this condition. People have suspected I have ADHD but I never got tested. I'm kinda wondering if I have it because I can control it in some ways and most of the time i can choose to stop and I only do it when I'm alone.
Happy to know I'm not alone!
I'm new to this forum too. I have a very similar situation where I have elaborate, long-term fantasies that I can drop into at any time, and often without even realizing it. I also make facial expressions and whisper, or quietly talk aloud if I'm alone. It almost feels like this place in the back of my mind that I can visit at any time. That said, in the past it hasn't really impacted my life in any pervasive, negative way. I'm sure sometimes I looked funny while zoning out around other people or I was less present than I'd like to be, but it hasn't impacted my ability to function in school or social life. In fact, sometimes I think it enhances my ability to succeed in real life because my daydreams are motivating or help me work through ideas or problems. But structure and day-to-day routine really helps ground me in reality. COVID has removed a lot of that from my life. I've been unemployed these last few months while my roommate worked during the day (I'm in my early twenties), and so I've had a lot of unoccupied time at home alone. On the one hand it was really cool to have so much time to spend with my mind and my daydreams, and I feel like I've learned a lot about myself from them. But the amount of time I've been spending removed from reality lately has started to scare me. I'm transitioning back to working remotely part-time, and I'm finding it difficult to focus, or I feel like lately I'm sort of daydreaming by default, interrupted by real life -- rather than the other way around. I think maybe it's going from immersive to maladaptive. Do people oscillate between the two? I've only just had the guts to start looking into this so any insight is appreciated. 