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Dec 12, 2018 4:45:29 GMT
Post by cd1022 on Dec 12, 2018 4:45:29 GMT
Hi- I am a 50 year old single woman and I think MD has been a big part of this. I just turned 50 last month and I think this has caused me to reflect on my life and also realize-holy crap where did 50 years go? Oh yeah, I was busy being an olympic athlete, actress, royalty etc. and real life passed me by. I started MD probably around age 6?? and had been pretty consistent in my life. 6 years ago my mother was diagnosed with cancer and I had been busy caring for her while starting a new job 3000 miles away. That was the first time in memory that I had stopped without even trying. It was almost as if I could NOT daydream. After she died I had even tried to force an old story but nothing would come. This lasted for almost 4 years as my personal life was upside down. I would have thought opposite. Last year I started again- just kind of slipped into and now becoming more aware that I rather stay in my "world" than be out in the real one.
You would never tell by looking at me and my "outside life" that I am like this- but I would like to learn more and hear about other people-
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Dec 12, 2018 20:55:32 GMT
Post by lavieenrose on Dec 12, 2018 20:55:32 GMT
You would never tell by looking at me and my "outside life" that I am like this- but I would like to learn more and hear about other people- It's interesting that you say that, because that's how I feel also. I am surprisingly functional and have had a pretty normal life (40, married with kids, have a pretty good job) given how much of my life has been spent inside my head! I think in some ways this is always what makes me reluctant to tell people around me. They don't see it, and surely wouldn't understand. |
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Dec 12, 2018 20:58:30 GMT
Post by lavieenrose on Dec 12, 2018 20:58:30 GMT
If only I had this to explain things for me and I had a place to go and people to talk to when I was in my 20s. It could have rescued the best part of my life as a woman. I discovered what MD was three years ago. I'm glad I did, but feel like my youth was gone and  that I can't get those great years back. I feel like that too. Having had a place to go to and share about this issue in my 20's would have, I feel, have made a big difference back then. Maybe not in the sense of actual actions in my real life, but more in how I felt about myself. I have, for most of my life, felt like a weirdo and an outsider. It's nice to have a community to share with. |
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Post by cd1022 on Dec 12, 2018 21:59:58 GMT
I always here from family and friends how much they would love my life. I travel constantly all over the world, go to interesting events etc - but what they don't know is that sometimes when I am at them, I am visiting them but with my friends in my head or can't wait to get back home from a concert or something to go back into my world- sometimes I can forget the DM world and enjoy my real experience- but other times I have a scenario for the place I am visiting or I take what is happening and while participating as "me" I am imagining what it would be like what other people in my DM.
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that I can't get those great years back.