Post by shxlbc on Aug 16, 2020 9:37:25 GMT
Hi,
I’m almost 20. I’ve been excessively daydreaming for as long as I can remember.
Recently it’s gotten so vivid and real to me. I lucid dream as well.
I find myself storing up images, conversations and ideas from my real life just to use them later in my dreams and make them better.
I am so invested in these dreams that I find myself crying to fake scenarios involving friends and family, often with the idea of them dying. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and have to remind myself these things aren’t real.
I was doing some reading about MD and I’m kinda scared this is a form of schizophrenia?
I have a therapist. And she’s kind of aware of these dreams. But the thing is, my real life is kinda terrible. I’ve isolated myself. I have a toxic family and maybe only one good friend. My therapist emphasises with the fact that I’m stuck. I’m don’t know how to fix my real life and make it better so I don’t need to dream anymore.
I’d just like to dream forever. Sometimes I start
my dreams are the real world and when I wake up in this terrible life that’s the real dream- if that makes sense.
When I wake up I feel nothing. I don’t react and cry like I do when I’m “dreaming”. I’ve been watching horror movies just to feel something in real life, even though I have such high anxiety I already feel scared in real life in general.
My daydreams keep me up all night. I usually sleep at 4am or later and sleep half the day because my real life isn’t worth getting up for anyway.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like I have a purpose here. I just needed someone to vent to. I’m really thankful this forum exists, I’ve never even heard of MD till today.
How do people cope with this? Do you still feel emotions in real life? Or are your dreams better?
I’m almost 20. I’ve been excessively daydreaming for as long as I can remember.
Recently it’s gotten so vivid and real to me. I lucid dream as well.
I find myself storing up images, conversations and ideas from my real life just to use them later in my dreams and make them better.
I am so invested in these dreams that I find myself crying to fake scenarios involving friends and family, often with the idea of them dying. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and have to remind myself these things aren’t real.
I was doing some reading about MD and I’m kinda scared this is a form of schizophrenia?
I have a therapist. And she’s kind of aware of these dreams. But the thing is, my real life is kinda terrible. I’ve isolated myself. I have a toxic family and maybe only one good friend. My therapist emphasises with the fact that I’m stuck. I’m don’t know how to fix my real life and make it better so I don’t need to dream anymore.
I’d just like to dream forever. Sometimes I start
my dreams are the real world and when I wake up in this terrible life that’s the real dream- if that makes sense. When I wake up I feel nothing. I don’t react and cry like I do when I’m “dreaming”. I’ve been watching horror movies just to feel something in real life, even though I have such high anxiety I already feel scared in real life in general.
My daydreams keep me up all night. I usually sleep at 4am or later and sleep half the day because my real life isn’t worth getting up for anyway.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like I have a purpose here. I just needed someone to vent to. I’m really thankful this forum exists, I’ve never even heard of MD till today.
How do people cope with this? Do you still feel emotions in real life? Or are your dreams better?
