Ari
New Daydreamer
Hi! I'm Ari, and probably have been suffering from MD since childhood and want to improve.
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Post by Ari on Aug 25, 2020 14:21:28 GMT
Hello! I started daydreaming at 4 years old, mainly involving characters from media. Around this time, I was bullied often and was very lonely. I never really played with anyone and the dream world I had developed was always in my head. I had more than just imaginary friends, I even had an imaginary family. This continued, gaining new plots and characters as I got older. I can't tell you how many hours I spend daydreaming because I don't really measure them and I'm into my dream world at various degrees. Sometimes I'm not completely immersed and other times, I'm totally lost. For a very short time in 5th - 6th grade, I stopped daydreaming, due to lack of source material,I guess. Then as soon as a friend and I developed a story idea, it started all over again. I would say from this, it became even worse. The emotional attachments I have to my characters and worlds I created are very close. My triggers became simply living. Anything or nothing going on in my life puts me back in the dream world.Since I was a kid, I always felt like I had to keep this a secret and I've only let a few close friends know. They did not react well, so while I'm comfortable explaining this to others, I'm cautious of talking about my own experiences. In my daydreams, the characters are 99.9% from other media. I have a few characters I've made and my dream-self is myself. Just, as most MDs report, an elevated version of themselves, typically in a leading position.The scenery and places are for the most part my own, the plots are all mine. Is there anyone else like this or am I just not creative? When in a daydream, I will be pacing or running around the house. My family hates this as our house is only 1 floor. I tend to mimic whatever motions occur in my daydream. I make faces and sometimes talk or whisper, I definitely laugh or chuckle. This isn't always the case, as I do it in the classroom very often, in cars, stores, there isn't a specific place where I don't daydream. When I was younger, I talked to myself a lot. My mother discouraged this and started shaming me for it because her brother has Autism and does it regularly. I've always had insomnia because my brain can't shut off with daydreaming. I've tried writing it out, but my brain goes much quicker than my fingers can type. I can never keep up with the story when writing. Anyways, I'm looking for help with my Maladaptive Daydreaming and people I can relate to.
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Post by Sam on Aug 27, 2020 18:27:31 GMT
Welcome to the forum!
Daydreaming like that when you're a child isn't really all that unnatural. It's when you don't make the shift to preferring real-life over daydreams as you get older that your daydreaming becomes more likely maladaptive.
What you're experiencing is incredibly common among MDers. I hope that you find the support you're looking for here on the forum :)
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