Post by itsnoor on Aug 25, 2020 17:31:35 GMT
Hello my name is noor its the first time I talk to anyone about my condition and here is my story
I used to be bullied in school for being fat ugly and short , they made jokes about me they started calling me names and act with me as if im a boy cuz I was a bit voilent so I started lying about my life about having a boyfriend so they would start excepting me and so.. then I changed school and the lies remained the same I used one of my cousins photo and created a fake acc and started texting my friends so on it continued until you know I was caught and the person I was lying to was my bff I lied to her cuz I wanted her to stay with and only me I loved her so much I couldnt stand the idea of her being someones bff other than me.. the lie I lied was bigger than just a bf it escalated and became a movie like story so when she know the truth she hated meand I dont blame her so after the breakup at first I suffered alot I cried for days i did a lot of stuff until one day I went into my room locked the door and then the maladaptive daydreaming journey started(november 2014)...I didnt only think about her and everything I started creating scenarios and acting them as if I was in acting class playing the role of me and her and everyone in my school trying to create different scenarios and acting out the lie ive said to her then it started escalating year by year change in characters and in stopped revolcing about her and started revolving about me ... me being someone different hot rich and all that then it escalted to me not even being in it just an image of what I wish to be.. and sometimes I watch movies and act as if i am an actor winning lots of awards and so on but not me being noor me even being a guy and last of all me being a footballer in the time I love real madrid and winning u know ballondor and then I go back home and marry the girl I love here I dream about us what weve been thru so on and I think i am wayyy past maladaptive daydreaming ...Yet although I always can differ btw bith worlds .. and I use music i cannot act sing dance or so on without music in the background and ofcourse my vc is never heard i somehow lipsing and talk..so this is me I hope u dont think im crazy im not ive been thru many situtions so its my escape plan from this miserable stupid world..and yes its affecting my studiesn and concentration anf manyother traits .. thank you for taking time to read this ily whoever u are wherever u are and we are all here together..
I used to be bullied in school for being fat ugly and short , they made jokes about me they started calling me names and act with me as if im a boy cuz I was a bit voilent so I started lying about my life about having a boyfriend so they would start excepting me and so.. then I changed school and the lies remained the same I used one of my cousins photo and created a fake acc and started texting my friends so on it continued until you know I was caught and the person I was lying to was my bff I lied to her cuz I wanted her to stay with and only me I loved her so much I couldnt stand the idea of her being someones bff other than me.. the lie I lied was bigger than just a bf it escalated and became a movie like story so when she know the truth she hated meand I dont blame her so after the breakup at first I suffered alot I cried for days i did a lot of stuff until one day I went into my room locked the door and then the maladaptive daydreaming journey started(november 2014)...I didnt only think about her and everything I started creating scenarios and acting them as if I was in acting class playing the role of me and her and everyone in my school trying to create different scenarios and acting out the lie ive said to her then it started escalating year by year change in characters and in stopped revolcing about her and started revolving about me ... me being someone different hot rich and all that then it escalted to me not even being in it just an image of what I wish to be.. and sometimes I watch movies and act as if i am an actor winning lots of awards and so on but not me being noor me even being a guy and last of all me being a footballer in the time I love real madrid and winning u know ballondor and then I go back home and marry the girl I love here I dream about us what weve been thru so on and I think i am wayyy past maladaptive daydreaming ...Yet although I always can differ btw bith worlds .. and I use music i cannot act sing dance or so on without music in the background and ofcourse my vc is never heard i somehow lipsing and talk..so this is me I hope u dont think im crazy im not ive been thru many situtions so its my escape plan from this miserable stupid world..and yes its affecting my studiesn and concentration anf manyother traits .. thank you for taking time to read this ily whoever u are wherever u are and we are all here together..
