I just wanted to get this all out, and thought this would be a good place to do it. I have followed the forum for a while, but did not introduce myself before.
I started daydreaming in my younger years, exactly when it started, but definitely when I was 12/13. I do not have any childhood traumas, I grew up in a normal family. I did read a lot of books though, that maybe sparked my imagination. In hindsight, I think I was also bored. My brother had learning difficulties at school, whereas I was the 'smart kid'. The odd one in the family, I was the first going to University.
I can control my MD pretty well, but the urge is sometimes harder to resist than at other times. I realised only after finding out about MD that I used to be a pacer. I would repeat one song and 'dance' in my small room. I have had a period without daydreaming, when I went to University. Like I said, I had control, and I told myself to stop because I was afraid I would develop some kind of mental illness. I met a boy (now my husband) and mostly forgot about the daydreams for 10 years or so.
My husband and I wanted to have a baby, so I quit with the birth control pill. I think that was when the daydreams slowly came back to me. Or maybe the idea of having a baby stressed me out. Who knows? Has anyone else seen a relationship between hormones and daydreaming?
The baby is now 16 month and very cute but yes, also stressful at times. People at work think I am always so relaxed, not worried at all about problems. I think I might relieve the stress with daydreaming. I am good at keeping up appearances I suppose.
Right now, I am working from home, and I have a hard time concentrating. I can't really daydream, but I also can't work either... Feel like a failure. My husband does not know about my daydreaming. He wonders sometimes why I shower so long. I daydream before falling asleep, and before I have to get up in the morning. If my family wasn't around, I guess it would spiral out of control, but they keep me on track!
Sorry for the long story, just needed to get it out. Thanks for reading.
Post by legendarydarkknight on Sept 27, 2020 17:02:12 GMT
I wanted to write in for this particular thread since day one, becuase stopping MD for 10 years is huge, imo. It's perfectly normal in these days especially to fall back in though; but seeing how well you fared against it (how did you do it btw?) you'll have no problem in managing it when things settle down. As alvi said, it may have something with you being homebound again, as DD gets more intense when you feel confined.
Also, congrulatulations on the motherhood! And I wish a long and prosper life for the baby :)