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Post by 88percentintroverted on Oct 19, 2020 18:51:06 GMT
Hi... I guess. I've known for a while now that i have MDA. I also have Depression and minor OCD. I found this site when i was looking for ways to help me concentrate more and daydream less. To me the daydreaming is comforting in a way. But lately it's just getting worst, sometimes the slightest things like music or a certain situation take me into a dive in my head then it takes someone yelling at me to snap me out of it. I use to love reading cause it would allow me to escape from my real life but even now while reading i don't even realize that i started daydreaming and my book was on my lap face down. When trying to do work i can't really focus. And when i look back to my past and try to see when the MDA started i figured out why i think. I remember that some of my most traumatic experiences happened in middle school and "day dreaming" allowed me to feel safe and like the troubles i was going through weren't real. I constantly pretended i was fine and in my "day dreams" the people in it where giving me advice and they were loving me when i wasn't getting loved in reality. In my dreams the world i created was either worse or better than my real life. Cause i thought that if my situation was worst there than in reality my life wasn't that bad. When i was at home and scared the "day dreams" would come and it was like i wasn't there, i was in a different world ... a different life. Even now though things aren't as bad as then, im alone and isolated and only my day dreams keep me company. I feel like my life is wasting away... but sometimes i would rather forever stay in my dreams than to stale awake in my reality were im absolutely powerless.
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Post by alvi on Oct 19, 2020 23:37:19 GMT
Even now though things aren't as bad as then, im alone and isolated and only my day dreams keep me company. I feel like my life is wasting away... but sometimes i would rather forever stay in my dreams than to stale awake in my reality were im absolutely powerless. Welcome to the forum. I understand the feeling of being alone and isolated with only your daydreams to serve as comfort so you are definitely not alone in feeling this way and you will find many of us here in the same boat.
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