Hello, I am new on this forum and I am glad I discovered it because it's good to read others' experiences and know that you are not alone. Basically my story is like the rest of yours, the similar struggles and concerns... but here is one thing that I can't quite understand or explain. So like majority of you I go to bed daydreaming, but apparently it sometimes causes some kind of "errors" in my brain. I will try to explain it as clearly as possible. For a few times, after going to bed daydreaming, I have found myself partly awake in the middle of the night. The hardest part begins now because I can't describe it accurately. So in the middle of the night, I feel awake, I am aware that I am awake, but there is another part of my brain that is in dream-like state. However, I am fully aware of it and I can say for sure that it is not just a dream. It has no certain plot or people in it. I can't put it into words. It is like process of creating a daydream world. Idk really. But the fact is that I can't stop my brain from doing it. My brain is of something, making up somethings but I have no power over it, it's not under my control. During times like that I feel like my brain is another subject in my body, completely independent from me and I am struggling for awhile to push it out of me but I can't. It's so exhausting. I know I should stop it, but I can't because I can't control it. When it happens I just can't wait till the morning so that I am finally free and I can control my thoughts. After trying to fight it for a while, I become unconscious and when I open my eyes finally it's morning. It doesn't happen usually, but when it happens it seriously affects and concerns me. I am scared I might be going insane. Have you maybe ever experienced something like this or ever heard of it? Thank you.
It might be lucid dreams I get them from time to time when we are asleep or brain fills in how we got on during the day and at time it can cause this to happen. I not to sure if it that some of them might be your brain just processing what happened and it does feel like you might wake up at times during this won't be worried I usually have them from time to them.
Mar, yes this happens to me sometimes. If I have overloaded my brain during the day with my fantasy world. I'll lay down to sleep and out of nowhere my brain will try to continue the scenarios with no effort on my part. And I'm like no no no....go away I need to sleep! And I feel like I don't go into deep sleep. I stay stuck in that half asleep half awake mode. I'm wondering if it interferes with our REM cycle of sleep...like preventing it. Yikes that's not good. 😳😳