I have been a pretty quite person around a lot of people for most of my life, but in the last year I feel like I can't even talk to the few people that I'm close to anymore. I feel like I'm getting more and more in my head in my own daydreams and having thoughts that I don't want to share with others either because I don't think they'd be interested or because I'm scared to open up and be judged. I'm having trouble of things to say in conversations more than ever now and I fear I will get worse. In conversations I am focusing on myself way too much to come up with anything original or I don't have much to say that is relevent to the real world since I've been caught up in fantacy. I don't know how to become a better conversationalist with more to say. I'm that maybe my best bet is opening up to a therapist or someone about what's going on, I know if I am comfortable enough, there is a lot I could talk about when it comes to analyzing myself. This could possibly make me more used to initiating conversation and more comfortable disclosing stuff about myself. but i dont know
Post by thedolphinbaby57 on Nov 4, 2020 16:15:45 GMT
I feel the same way you do. My friends can talk to me about anything but I won't tell them shit about me. I always feel like an outcast sometimes and lonely around certain people. I tried to open up to some of my friends back in 7th grade (I'm a freshman in high school now) but I don't think they actively listened to me except for one. I think because of this I got scared to open up again about anything i'm going through because I feel like people will just brush it off or say that I'm fine and not really care..including my parents. I just journal to myself whenever I really need to get something off my chest instead of calling up my friends and asking for advice. I always feel like If someone does listen to me then I will keep telling them how I'm feeling but eventually end up of me feeling like I may be a burden and that I may be annoying the other person with my feelings and thoughts. I feel like my parents would fuss at me or not really listen to me and say the reason I'm feeling the way that I'm feeling is because "You're always on that phone >:0" but really that's not the case. You can try journaling sometimes, weather it's on an app or an actual journal you can discover how you're feeling and what's really bothering you. But yeah I feel like this forum is the only place people won't judge you but anyone outside of this forum may seem I don't know fake? Or judgmental? sometimes I feel like when I open up I saying too much like I am right now and I've noticed that I'd rather ope up to random strangers on the internet rather the people in front of me (I've actually noticed a lot of other people do it also). I'm done with my little rant for now because I ran out of things to say but i hope you have a good day/night
You can try journaling sometimes, weather it's on an app or an actual journal you can discover how you're feeling and what's really bothering you. But yeah I've noticed that I'd rather ope up to random strangers on the internet rather the people in front of me (I've actually noticed a lot of other people do it also). I'm done with my little rant for now because I ran out of things to say but i hope you have a good day/night
I do journal sometimes and I agree that it does help to at least get your thoughts out somewhere. It is also really chill disclosing parts of yourself to random strangers more than people you know because there is no real relationship at risk with a stranger. I am scared if I'm honest to people close to me, like my sister, our relationship that I really value will be different or worse. I can't be sure that me being honest would make things worse, it could even help me make things better, but there is a risk of hurting the relationship so that's why I haven't been honest yet. I am glad you found this forum when you did, I found out about madd as a 20-year-old and I wish I had found out about it at your age because I think the younger you are with this usually the easier it can be to improve. If you ever want to open up about anything feel free to messege me anytime I won't judge at all
in the last year I feel like I can't even talk to the few people that I'm close to anymore.I feel the exact same way. I'm 23, and I haven't reached out to my closest friends. My only support is my immediate family and they are no help. I get told the same thing, except it's more like the things I go through are my fault, and if I was more like my sister I wouldn't be depressed, or weird things wouldn't be happening. I don't want to say anything to my friends because I have a feeling they don't care as much as they act like they do. You do have to be careful and not place too much trust in everyone. Be very selective. You can look for support from those who have proven themselves trustworthy in the past. Anyone who always keeps your secrets, and has your back. If you feel like your friends can't be trusted, or like they don't have your back, you're probably right. But don't keep things to yourself. Find somebody to trust, and let it out. And make sure you are there for them as much as you need them to be there for you. You don't want to lose their trust because you kept the friendship one-sided. Be a part of their support system, too.