Post by Mia on Nov 4, 2020 15:54:55 GMT
Hi, college student here.
I've been daydreaming since i was a kid but it started to take a toll on my life after I had a few surgeries and had to walk around with crutches and sometimes a wheelchair. My insecurities skyrocketed and I immediately began feeling depressed and anxious in my daily life.
I stared to daydream about me being a completely different person (looks based on models I saw on IG and personality from sitcoms) and started living in my own world with the celebrities I chose as characters. I don't want to get too deep into it because there is a lot of shame revolved around my "daydream world" and I become irritated and ashamed once someone notices and asks me why I'm pacing around and smiling to myself.
I still daydream but now I imagine myself (a much more successful version of myself) surrounded by a bunch of people I've met casually once that exist, but don't know me irl. Some of my biggest triggers are: music, TV shows, stand up shows and podcasts.
I feel like the current situation hit me especially hard since my phone addiction increased, due to the fact that my lessons are online now.
It makes me so
that I ignored this problem my whole life because I though that by the time I left for college I would eventually "grow out of it" but this actually resulted in me hating my major and still not passing main exams because I can't be in silence for even 10 seconds.
It's especially hard making friends and meeting people because the moment I'm in a social situation I get angry that I'm not the person in my daydream with the people around me.
If anybody has any helpful immediate tips I would really appreciate them because I know that majority of you here know how stressful it is to watch your social, school and general life fall apart but not be able to associate and return to reality.
I've been daydreaming since i was a kid but it started to take a toll on my life after I had a few surgeries and had to walk around with crutches and sometimes a wheelchair. My insecurities skyrocketed and I immediately began feeling depressed and anxious in my daily life.
I stared to daydream about me being a completely different person (looks based on models I saw on IG and personality from sitcoms) and started living in my own world with the celebrities I chose as characters. I don't want to get too deep into it because there is a lot of shame revolved around my "daydream world" and I become irritated and ashamed once someone notices and asks me why I'm pacing around and smiling to myself.
I still daydream but now I imagine myself (a much more successful version of myself) surrounded by a bunch of people I've met casually once that exist, but don't know me irl. Some of my biggest triggers are: music, TV shows, stand up shows and podcasts.
I feel like the current situation hit me especially hard since my phone addiction increased, due to the fact that my lessons are online now.
It makes me so
that I ignored this problem my whole life because I though that by the time I left for college I would eventually "grow out of it" but this actually resulted in me hating my major and still not passing main exams because I can't be in silence for even 10 seconds. It's especially hard making friends and meeting people because the moment I'm in a social situation I get angry that I'm not the person in my daydream with the people around me.
If anybody has any helpful immediate tips I would really appreciate them because I know that majority of you here know how stressful it is to watch your social, school and general life fall apart but not be able to associate and return to reality.
