Post by avanoelle on Dec 7, 2020 4:48:22 GMT
hiiii!! this is basically just me ranting and telling you my MD story. i dont go to therapy anymore and i never told anyone about this so i am just looking for advice?
when i was little i would play dollhouse alllll the time, like by myself and i would make extreme stories and a lot of times pause and just sit there and stare off into space
about what should happen next and everything. when i got a little bit older, maybe middle school age, i would lay in bed every night and play with my stuffed animals. i was pretty much always a character in the stories and i started to do this often, until it turned into pretty much every night. once i got rid of my stuffed animals i turned to invisible people which i still do to this day. i would lay in bed and pretend my blanket was a dress for parties or stuff like that. i would do this all in bed but i would whisper and imagine very vividly everything that was happening. now i get up out of bed most nights and turn on music and just daydream with invisible people. to be honest its fun and i never really have had a problem with it or thought it was bad but now that i know that this is a thing i feel like it might be impacting me a lot more than i thought.
basically i am a senior in high school right now and i have no friends. i havent had friends for all of high school since i moved in freshman year. honestly i am fine with it because i am on social media and talk to a lot of people online but i feel like maybe the daydreaming might be why i dont care to make or keep friends. even when i have friends i dont care if they gradually stop talking to me because i know when i go home i will have my fake stories and fantasies. i dont know if i have social anxiety or if i am just extremely introverted, but i have always thought that social anxiety was the reason why i didnt have friends,, but maybe this daydreaming has been bigger than i thought? up until two-ish years ago it hadnt really been like EVERY single night, but now it def is. i read that it develops because of trauma but i dont think i have any trauma from my early childhood (tbh i cant remember most of it which ik is also a sign of trauma
but my parents are really good and my brothers are too so i have no idea).
what do u guys think? am i overthinking this? should i stop daydreaming? idk if this is actually that big of a deal but i currently struggle with self harm and possible social anxiety and i have gone to therapy in the past for about a year but i never brought up this daydreaming thing to her or anyone else. i stopped going bc it wasn’t really helping and i would just lie to her a lot. do u think i should go back to therapy for daydreaming? if yes what do i even say. anyways, this is a lot longer than i thought it would be. i hope this makes sense and thanks for reading 
also idk how this forum works so lets hope yall can respond because if not this would be awkward lmfaoooo
when i was little i would play dollhouse alllll the time, like by myself and i would make extreme stories and a lot of times pause and just sit there and stare off into space
about what should happen next and everything. when i got a little bit older, maybe middle school age, i would lay in bed every night and play with my stuffed animals. i was pretty much always a character in the stories and i started to do this often, until it turned into pretty much every night. once i got rid of my stuffed animals i turned to invisible people which i still do to this day. i would lay in bed and pretend my blanket was a dress for parties or stuff like that. i would do this all in bed but i would whisper and imagine very vividly everything that was happening. now i get up out of bed most nights and turn on music and just daydream with invisible people. to be honest its fun and i never really have had a problem with it or thought it was bad but now that i know that this is a thing i feel like it might be impacting me a lot more than i thought. basically i am a senior in high school right now and i have no friends. i havent had friends for all of high school since i moved in freshman year. honestly i am fine with it because i am on social media and talk to a lot of people online but i feel like maybe the daydreaming might be why i dont care to make or keep friends. even when i have friends i dont care if they gradually stop talking to me because i know when i go home i will have my fake stories and fantasies. i dont know if i have social anxiety or if i am just extremely introverted, but i have always thought that social anxiety was the reason why i didnt have friends,, but maybe this daydreaming has been bigger than i thought? up until two-ish years ago it hadnt really been like EVERY single night, but now it def is. i read that it develops because of trauma but i dont think i have any trauma from my early childhood (tbh i cant remember most of it which ik is also a sign of trauma
but my parents are really good and my brothers are too so i have no idea). what do u guys think? am i overthinking this? should i stop daydreaming? idk if this is actually that big of a deal but i currently struggle with self harm and possible social anxiety and i have gone to therapy in the past for about a year but i never brought up this daydreaming thing to her or anyone else. i stopped going bc it wasn’t really helping and i would just lie to her a lot. do u think i should go back to therapy for daydreaming? if yes what do i even say
. anyways, this is a lot longer than i thought it would be. i hope this makes sense and thanks for reading 
also idk how this forum works so lets hope yall can respond because if not this would be awkward lmfaoooo