Call me Atalanta since I don't really want my real name known. I'm 16F living in the US.
I never knew what MD was or that it even existed until about a week ago when it showed up in a tiktok (yes ik). I'm not diagnosed by a doctor or anything but I can almost check every single box there is when symptoms are mentioned. I found this board with so many people on it, with stories that were almost word for word experiences I've had. It brought me to tears knowing that people like me exist out in the world.
I guess I've been daydreaming since as long as I've been dreaming. It's become a bigger part of my life starting in 8th grade though, and now it's basically intertwined with how I live. I can go through the entire day daydreaming. It used to not be bad, but, ya know, a pandemic can kinda throw that into whack. I've started to lose myself into the daydreams almost 24/7, and my grades are feeling the effects. I guess I also want some advice as to how to control or at least tone down the dreams.
But see, here's the thing. A lot of things trigger me. The fandoms I love trigger me. The TV shows I watch trigger me. The music I listen to triggers me. People mentioning certain events or topics trigger me. And I can't avoid them since a) they're around me all of the time and b) if I don't have something playing in my ear, I get depressed really fast and start crying, which is not ideal to say the least. When something trigger's me, I pace around my house while listening to music until I can calm down, which can take up hours of my day. And since I'm surrounded my so many triggers (and the music itself being a trigger) I've just been going in a spiral.
It does help me sometimes. I'm really creative and artsy because of it, and certain ones help me fall asleep and calm my anxiety. I love my characters and their worlds, and I really don't want them to go away. But I just need them to be toned down to a point where I can at least do my homework on time or pay attention in class. Talking to my friends or parents while studying helps but they have their own lives and I need to be able to deal with this when they aren't available and my introverted-self can't always ask them. What can I do? I know I wont be able to find all the answers I'm looking for at once, but at least something that can lead me in the right direction.
I guess TL;DR Hi I'm new and pleasantly surprised that so many people are here. I've been daydreaming most of my life, but it's recently absorbed itself into my life. I have a lot of triggers, so I need a way to deal with them. Any advice? Thanks!
Welcome! I totally get where you're coming from! My daydreams have been spiraling out of control since the pandemic. I also needed to tone my daydreams down during school and then "reactivate" them at night. Some advice I have for you is to pick up a new hobby. A lot of people here have recommended this to me on this forum, and it's helped a lot. I've started to draw/sketch, even though I'm not the greatest at drawing. It calms me down, and puts me in a good mood. Another strategy I've tried is using some sort of Play-Doh or clay and just rubbing it in my hands. During my online classes, I usually just play around with it and it helps me focus on kneading the Play-Doh and focusing on what my teacher is saying.
Remember, no one will judge you on here, since we are all going through some variation of what you are. Everyone is here to help one another out, while navigating their own daydreams. Good luck!
" b) if I don't have something playing in my ear, I get depressed really fast and start crying, which is not ideal to say the least. " That seems like a problem . Are you habituated to heightened form of stimulation so that you need something all the time? Either stories and music from outside are creating them inside your head .