Firstly, Happy New Year to everyone! Hope everyone is doing great. Recently I had written a post about me failing a semester at college. I am starting a new semester two days from now- it is an offline sem for students including me. I am a nervous wreck since today afternoon-- I am less scared of being sick than falling into daydreaming again. It is giving me shivers of running away from problems and failing another new semester. I cannot trust myself at all. I don't know if i should feel good or bad-- i have shift to my dorms for 4 months! I won't have my brother checking up on me every two hours, nor my parents or any friends accompanying me this time on campus. I know i am overthinking a bit but I am getting very anxious. Do you guys have any advice on this? Again, Have a great year!
Happy New Year! And congratulations on starting a new semester!
The fact that you’re freaking out about it so much, shows that you really care about doing better in school. But you need to work on changing your toxic negative self talk. So you’ve had a bad semester and failed before, that can happen to anyone. It’s in the past now and you will do better. It’s helpful for me when I’m negatively to catch myself and change my perspective on the situation. For example, think of your situation from a broader perspective, you’re amongst the lucky people in this world who has access to education. Change your negative to something more positive or neutral by from different perspectives, you are the harshest critic to yourself.
thanks jessica! Well, i returned back home-the distance isn't that much btw college and home. the thing was i had to stay up within the dorm rooms for 5 days of the week and go to campus only on the other two days. i was very worried about my daydreams. the day i had shifted, i had already ended up binge eating, daydreaming and binge watching youtube.
currently, i am making changes- i don't have the best schedule but i am pumped up to do and be interested in my work. i started painting again as well. i completed my work on time this time. but it is weird, this feeling of accomplishing anything- it has been years since feeling like i want to do stuff. i am frustrated of daydreaming frankly, because i have no content in order for daydreaming- it is good that i am getting frustrated of it but somewhere it is just weird how i cannot daydream. it has happened before but not as long for a week!
i don't know what and why i am feeling these emotions and how my thoughtline is concentrated towards just work! i can only feel a sudden anxiety every time something good happens. yesterday, while riding a bike, i was alone and thoughts started streaming inside my head- they made me so confused and dizzy about myself. they were mostly about getting anxious about everything.
has anyone felt this? does anyone know how i should help myself out of this?
really wanted to talk to someone. thanks for reading!