Hi. I don't know if I fit in the M.D cathegory. All I know is that I've allways had a very active imagination.
I'm an only child of parents who allways worked much. When I was little I would play with my dolls and imagine all kinds of scenarios for them. But when I got to teenage years and stopped playing with dolls, I started to read a lot. I would read as much as 5 to 6 300page books per week. In between books I would every now and then write my own stories, which allways had a beggining, but not allways an ending. I would create scenarios for my own life and imagine situations and scenarios. Often Times while talking to myself in the mirror or in the shower or Alone in my Room, whispering. While I would daydream during class, and would draw my characters in the back of my notebooks I never had a problem in having good grades until I got to university.
I have a very hard time focusing as my mind tends to wander to my own world. Even while Im having a conversation. It's very hard to keep my mind focused and off day dreaming. My parents would mock me saying I was at the dinner table but my mind wasn't. I managed to somehow make it through university. While I was in university I started to write down every single daydream. I managed to write an entire book of Over 300 Pages. While I was unemployed after university, count this was nine months, I wrote Over 700 Pages of more adventures of my characters.
I spent my entire days daydreaming. Like vivid halucinations that I know aren't real. I know all these characters are from my mind but I can't stop seeing their lives. My partner is allways worried that I'm depressed because I keep wondering off to this dimension in my mind that only I can see and he says "You don't listen to me. You're never paying attention. You're not even here." All the time.
It's very disruptive as when I try not to think about it or when I'm simply out of ideas for this imaginary world I feel bored and as if something is missing and immediatly I enter a different day dream. I feel like I can't fully live my life because Im Living the life inside my own head. I have a job now and I find that I made mistakes in my job because my mind wandered off to day dreaming. My way to work and my way back home I spend it daydreaming. If not with my characters and their lives, of me and imaginary scenarios.
I read that repetitive motions while day dreaming are common. I don't think I have any particular One but I find some repetitive music to help keep daydreaming. Sometimes the characters have such vivid feelings I cry or laugh out loud while writting it down and apparently that's common as well?
The worst part is if I don't write or draw my daydreams I can't completly move past them and the episode gets stuck in this annoying loop until I do. Its so frustrating to try to distance myself and I can't. I don't know what can be done. I like my characters. I like this world in my mind and to Navigate it through my characters but It's very disruptive and I want to at least tone it down. What can I do?
Thanks for the reply! I have turned it Into a story, edited it to become clearer and with a less spaghetti like story line, take out pointless side plots and tried a couple of editors to publish it but not much luck. Maybe because I wrote it in English and my grammar/spelling isn't perfect or because it's just very boring for other people. So for now I just keep writting as I see, sometimes drawing. it has become embarassing for me to show my stories to other people, I'm why, but ever since I've stopped trying to show it to anyone. I keep them for myself. When I can draw something exactly as I see them on my daydreams I publish them on my Facebook page with the character's name or a short description of what's on that picture on the caption and that's all I can show to other people at this point. I feel embarassed that I daydream so much. Not many people understand. How do you cope with the constant daydreaming? Does it affect your job/school/whatever occupation? How do you avoid daydreaming in important moments and concentrate on what's happening in real life?