I am so glad I can finally share with others!
Jan 8, 2021 7:38:16 GMT
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Post by katamariechan on Jan 8, 2021 7:38:16 GMT
Hello everyone!
I am Marie and I am almost 27 years old. My first language is French, so please don't be too harsh with me on how I express myself.
It is very comforting to realize that other people experience the same things, I am happy to be able to share.
I work as quality control in a paper mill, which is a very repetitive job with long hours (12 hour shifts), the perfect situation to zone out in daydreaming. My work is still good, but it takes an incredibly massive quantity of energy to make sure I don't get carried away. As a result, I am constantly exhausted, even on my off days and just lay in bed with music on dreaming for hours.
My boyfriend does not understand this (he has no idea of what I am going through) and thinks I am being lazy or making excuses. What sucks the most is that I am a passionnate person:I am curious about a lot of subjects, I write, paint and draw, and I love to read too. Due to me shutting down and retreating into dreaming, I can't enjoy what life has to offer. Since the scenarios I make up are perfect, obviously, life cannot compare and I am not content with anything real. It is very distressing.
I apologise for the wall of text, it is the first time I can speak about this without being judged, so everything came out at the same time. :( I wish you all
, take care and it will be my pleasure to chat!
I am Marie and I am almost 27 years old. My first language is French, so please don't be too harsh with me on how I express myself.
It is very comforting to realize that other people experience the same things, I am happy to be able to share.
I work as quality control in a paper mill, which is a very repetitive job with long hours (12 hour shifts), the perfect situation to zone out in daydreaming. My work is still good, but it takes an incredibly massive quantity of energy to make sure I don't get carried away. As a result, I am constantly exhausted, even on my off days and just lay in bed with music on dreaming for hours.
My boyfriend does not understand this (he has no idea of what I am going through) and thinks I am being lazy or making excuses. What sucks the most is that I am a passionnate person:I am curious about a lot of subjects, I write, paint and draw, and I love to read too. Due to me shutting down and retreating into dreaming, I can't enjoy what life has to offer. Since the scenarios I make up are perfect, obviously, life cannot compare and I am not content with anything real. It is very distressing.
I apologise for the wall of text, it is the first time I can speak about this without being judged, so everything came out at the same time. :( I wish you all
, take care and it will be my pleasure to chat! 
