Hey there I just found a video describing this on tiktok and was shocked to recognise the symptoms in myself. I have been doing some research and believe this is something I might identify with. I throw so much at my characters and arm them with unrivaled resilience, which, I guess is my way of projecting the version of myself I wish I was in my own dream land with characters that bring me - and I kid you not - hours of happiness and escape. This makes me nervous, as I read that this can often be caused by trauma, and I personally have a great life, yet I still end up hating myself for these feelings of longing for another world that I cannot stop. I used to feel this way with my self harming, too (which I haven't done since mid 2020!) It's teaching me that mental health issues can effect people in every situation and if anyone somehow sees this and reads this far (well done), just remember that just because you're struggling, it doesn't mean you're failing.