I don't know why but my MD just increased all of a sudden. I was trying to reduce it and it worked to some extent but suddenly it became worse. I am MDing a lot more and I just can't distract myself. My emotions are a bigger mess. I don't feel anything anymore but sometimes I just feel frustrated or for no reason. I feel like I want to let out my frustration but don't know how. even typing this msg is hard for me. I really need some help.
I think that progress isn't linear, you won't start getting better and just keep getting better forever. You should try to remember yourself that there are relapses in the process and that your goal should be to make them less frequent, until you can finally say I haven't daydreamed in years. MD has been shown to be related to emotions, so it isn't really surprising that it strikes back hard when you're not feeling well.
As for the frustation, it normally helps me to physically distance myself from my situation a little bit. There many ways to do that, I like to go on walks at 4am, in Brazil right now, the temperatures are much cooler at that time and there's never anyone in the streets. The cold air and the silence really helps me relax and dial down my mind a bit. If you try this, don't bring your phone or at least don't listen to music, the aloneness and silence are important, and also keep..