Post by saffiyainthepool on Feb 2, 2021 5:32:50 GMT
Hi, as the subject title states I'm Saffiya. I'm 18 and I'll turn 19 this year. I'm a highschool student, I'm a roleplayer, a writer, a DND Dungeon Master, and an animal lover. I have daydreaming since I was 11-12 years old. I'm a writer but not even that is enough of a funnel for all the stories going on in my head. Currently I have 8-10 daydream worlds with different characters in each of them that I personally play as. I use music, movies, books, pictures, and tv as different types of inspiration. I often listen to music while I pace around the room working out massive story threads in my head. It can look like I'm talking to myself or that I'm intensely focused while I'm daydreaming. I lose track of time easily and have spent hours doing this which negatively affects my productivity.
It has been a life saver at times. I've dealt and continue to deal with and fight severe depressive episodes and then general depression and overwhelming anxiety. Daydreaming at times has given me a reason to live when I didn't have a reason to live as myself. I didn't know what I did had a name till today and the relief I feel is unexplainable. My mom caught me pacing around the room once and said I looked psychotic and that I need to stop which really affected how I daydream after that. I go into them a lot deeper now as a way of avoiding the guilt and shame I feel for daydreaming. Sometimes I can't control it. It just...happens.
I dealt with so many mental health issues that is compromised my performance in school and has held me back in school which is not only embarrassing but costly. I love daydreaming but I need to get some control over my life and it's so hard to do when sometimes the only way I feel happy is when I'm not actively in reality.
Anyway, how are you guys all doing?
It has been a life saver at times. I've dealt and continue to deal with and fight severe depressive episodes and then general depression and overwhelming anxiety. Daydreaming at times has given me a reason to live when I didn't have a reason to live as myself. I didn't know what I did had a name till today and the relief I feel is unexplainable. My mom caught me pacing around the room once and said I looked psychotic and that I need to stop which really affected how I daydream after that. I go into them a lot deeper now as a way of avoiding the guilt and shame I feel for daydreaming. Sometimes I can't control it. It just...happens.
I dealt with so many mental health issues that is compromised my performance in school and has held me back in school which is not only embarrassing but costly. I love daydreaming but I need to get some control over my life and it's so hard to do when sometimes the only way I feel happy is when I'm not actively in reality.
Anyway, how are you guys all doing?
