Post by renee123 on Feb 2, 2021 8:00:00 GMT
I started to wake up in life being more aware more mindful and I started to ask myself why do I daydream so much? I mean I cry and everything I really feel the emotion. I started to question that because my daydreams are mostly dramatic and unhealthy, 
. I’m mostly always crying. But I’ll have happy ones too. I’ve been doing this for as long as I can remember. I knew it probably wasn’t something everyone did but I was asleep and unaware of my own behaviors. After researching I found manipulative daydreaming and thought I was having a mental break down. I started having thoughts that I couldn’t stay in the present moment and that I have a mental illness. Mental illness? It’s crazy even to see that. I’m scared I don’t want this to consume my life. Now that I know this is not normal I want to stop but how? Does this mean I had some type of trauma? True my life was not perfect by all means I hated my childhood but I thought I recovered from all of that. Was this my way of recovering and escaping from it all without even knowing. I’m just so lost on what to do and how to feel. This is crazy.
. I’m mostly always crying. But I’ll have happy ones too. I’ve been doing this for as long as I can remember. I knew it probably wasn’t something everyone did but I was asleep and unaware of my own behaviors. After researching I found manipulative daydreaming and thought I was having a mental break down. I started having thoughts that I couldn’t stay in the present moment and that I have a mental illness. Mental illness? It’s crazy even to see that. I’m scared I don’t want this to consume my life. Now that I know this is not normal I want to stop but how? Does this mean I had some type of trauma? True my life was not perfect by all means I hated my childhood but I thought I recovered from all of that. Was this my way of recovering and escaping from it all without even knowing. I’m just so lost on what to do and how to feel. This is crazy. 
of Md as a mental illness with only give you more anxiety. Please don't exert yourself too much. It took us forever to get where you are now, so expecting it to go away quickly is unreasonable. I think of it as addiction. The journey of keeping addictive behavior in check (and perhaps letting go) is a long and difficult. It also helps to accept that it will probably never go away, it is a part of who we are. But we can manage it.