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Post by alexispeyton on Feb 10, 2021 22:17:06 GMT
Because I can pinpoint when exactly my MD started, I feel like it should be able to come to an end. I'm struggling to come to terms with the fact that that may not be true.
I like to write creatively. I wish I could turn my daydreams into something positive by turning them into written stories, but I just can't seem to as hard as I try. That's frustrating, because I was attempting to give my MD some sort of purpose.
I find that MD is really hard to talk about in person. I have tried to explain it to some friends, and despite their very loving/receptive/open listening I start to feel dumb and shut down and stop the conversation. I haven't even broached the subject with my mother. I feel there is never a natural time to bring it up. :(
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Post by Sam on Feb 10, 2021 23:38:17 GMT
Welcome to the forum!
Make sure you understand that there is a difference between daydreaming and maladaptive daydreaming. You can't completely stop daydreaming, as its a natural and necessary function of the brain, but you can regain a balance between daydreams and real life so that your daydreams are no longer maladaptive (so they would not longer interfere with your ability to function).
Unfortunately, even though using MD as fuel for creative writing would be good, most who try have a similar experience as you have. Our daydreams are so appealing, in part, because they are perfect. The action of writing them out is difficult and never gets to the same level of perfection as they are in our heads. Honestly, that's a pretty common experience among all creative writers, not just MDers, but with us, it just causes us to want to spend even more time in our heads.
Because most people can't understand what we're experiencing, talking about it with non-MDers is difficult. A common response to "I daydream all the time," is "oh, well everyone does that," which is definitely not the kind of response we want when we're trying to explain how hard it is to live with MD. It is true that many non-MDers daydream all the time, but if their daydreams don't interfere with their ability to function, its not the same as what we experience. Oftentimes, I see people use instances when their family/friends comment on them zoning out or making repetitive movements (or other outward signs of daydreaming) as an opportunity to broach the subject. Personally, I usually bring it up when talking about my other unhealthy coping mechanisms, as that's basically what MD is. However, reception depends on who you're talking to. Some people are open and accepting, and others aren't. That's one of the reasons why the forum is such a great place to be because you can openly talk about your experiences with MD without fear of being judged. everyone here has gone through similar things and understands in a way that our friends or family probably don't.
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