Post by kristen on Feb 10, 2021 23:40:15 GMT
I had a talk with my mother today and she asked me why are you always like this? Why are you always depressed, why are you so devastated, you have literally everything other people wish for, and there's nothing for u to be upset about?
she kept talking about how much I have of what she described a perfect life ,and that I have everything I want and that I do not appreciate what I have, I felt
and hopeless, how come that the closest person to you does not understand you at all!
But her words opened a new wound in my heart, I didn't say anything, I stayed silent the whole time because I couldn't find anything to say I felt very angry with myself and thought she might be right. Why do I have to be like this? Why can't I be normal and appreciate the little things that I have ... but I'm here to tell my mom the things I can never tell her ever in my life
Dear Mom, I am so sorry for being a disappointment to you, sorry that I am not the perfect daughter u always dreamed of, I am sorry for being such a weirdo who refuses to go Outside, I'm sorry for being broken and not being good enough, Iam trying really hard every day ... Geting out of bed, brushing my teeth or doing my hair, sleeping, eating ... leaving the house... They may be easy things for you but they are challenges for me,
I am sorry I did not tell you that our neighbor molested me when I was 6 years old, or that I was bullied a lot, or that i never felt in home , or that I was hurt many times and my back is full with stabs and holes, that I hate my appearance and how not and you always commented about my weight...I hate how I think and everything about me, that I needed you but you weren't there for me, that my heart broke many times, that I died many times and that I cry every day before bed, that I suffer from md, depression, anxiety, bdd,dissociation and the list goes on. ...
I'm sorry I never told you that I tried to end it 3 times, how difficult life was for me, and that I will never forget your painful words until the day I die, and also my mom the person I love crushed me and called me ugly.
there's a lot to say and it's that u never gonna see it .
(sorry guys for taking so long , i'm just broken hearted)💔😢
she kept talking about how much I have of what she described a perfect life ,and that I have everything I want and that I do not appreciate what I have, I felt
and hopeless, how come that the closest person to you does not understand you at all!But her words opened a new wound in my heart, I didn't say anything, I stayed silent the whole time because I couldn't find anything to say I felt very angry with myself and thought she might be right. Why do I have to be like this? Why can't I be normal and appreciate the little things that I have ... but I'm here to tell my mom the things I can never tell her ever in my life
Dear Mom, I am so sorry for being a disappointment to you, sorry that I am not the perfect daughter u always dreamed of, I am sorry for being such a weirdo who refuses to go Outside, I'm sorry for being broken and not being good enough, Iam trying really hard every day ... Geting out of bed, brushing my teeth or doing my hair, sleeping, eating ... leaving the house... They may be easy things for you but they are challenges for me,
I am sorry I did not tell you that our neighbor molested me when I was 6 years old, or that I was bullied a lot, or that i never felt in home , or that I was hurt many times and my back is full with stabs and holes, that I hate my appearance and how not and you always commented about my weight...I hate how I think and everything about me, that I needed you but you weren't there for me, that my heart broke many times, that I died many times and that I cry every day before bed, that I suffer from md, depression, anxiety, bdd,dissociation and the list goes on. ...
I'm sorry I never told you that I tried to end it 3 times, how difficult life was for me, and that I will never forget your painful words until the day I die, and also my mom the person I love crushed me and called me ugly.
there's a lot to say and it's
that u never gonna see it .(sorry guys for taking so long , i'm just broken hearted)💔😢
