Post by tosaki03 on Mar 9, 2021 17:46:14 GMT
Before I start, please anyone who sees this please reply. I feel like I'm talking to myself on here...
You know, sometimes, when this MD gets way out of hand, I really beat myself up about it. I'm 17, my characters are in their mid 20's. They have children, but I refuse to make them age, or I refuse to daydream back in time. I just keep them the same. I don't like this because I worry about how I will cope with my thoughts in the future...
In reality, when you age, so does everyone and everything else. I'm scared that I will grow up and still be stuck with the same problem. That I'll still be daydreaming with the same characters, having them do the same things again and again. What I'm trying to say is; what if I grow up and get married, for instance, I should not be dreaming of a couple who are still in their mid 20's. I shouldn't be dreaming of a couple at all.
My thoughts are scattered all over the place, I probably sound so crazy but please keep reading.
Does anyone else feel as if they cannot mention the names of their characters to themselves, even in their head? I refer to my 2 main people as him and her, he and she. But when I'm actively doing the daydreaming, the characters are allowed to say each others names?
And lastly, I project every single thought and feeling onto my characters. I could see a model on an advertisement wearing a dress, and straightaway I imagine her in the same dress, because she looks beautiful.
Or, I'll see a movie scene which I'm really into eg. a fight between a couple. And what d'y know, I make my characters re enact the same scene. When they argue and get upset, I get upset. When they're happy and laughing, I laugh and smile with them.
How long will this be accetable? Because as much as I wish I spent less time in my head, I hate the thought of not seeing them in my head everyday.
You know, sometimes, when this MD gets way out of hand, I really beat myself up about it. I'm 17, my characters are in their mid 20's. They have children, but I refuse to make them age, or I refuse to daydream back in time. I just keep them the same. I don't like this because I worry about how I will cope with my thoughts in the future...
In reality, when you age, so does everyone and everything else. I'm scared that I will grow up and still be stuck with the same problem. That I'll still be daydreaming with the same characters, having them do the same things again and again. What I'm trying to say is; what if I grow up and get married, for instance, I should not be dreaming of a couple who are still in their mid 20's. I shouldn't be dreaming of a couple at all.
My thoughts are scattered all over the place, I probably sound so crazy but please keep reading.
Does anyone else feel as if they cannot mention the names of their characters to themselves, even in their head? I refer to my 2 main people as him and her, he and she. But when I'm actively doing the daydreaming, the characters are allowed to say each others names?
And lastly, I project every single thought and feeling onto my characters. I could see a model on an advertisement wearing a dress, and straightaway I imagine her in the same dress, because she looks beautiful.
Or, I'll see a movie scene which I'm really into eg. a fight between a couple. And what d'y know, I make my characters re enact the same scene. When they argue and get upset, I get upset. When they're happy and laughing, I laugh and smile with them.
How long will this be accetable? Because as much as I wish I spent less time in my head, I hate the thought of not seeing them in my head everyday.
very new to this forum and i get what you mean. my core characters in my favourite MDs were all 16 from when i was about 10. they were always that age and it always made sense to me and i couldn’t conceive them being any younger or older. i was feeling weird about turning 17 and being older than my characters, and i got really in my head about it. for about a year or so nothing changed and it felt a little strange sometimes when i connected it to my lived experience of being 16 but not too weird. but when i turned 18 i found what i thought impossible started to happen. my daydreams began to change and i started spending hours on scenarios where they were 18 instead, and how they’d changed over those 2 years and it was sooo captivating to explore how they’d changed and i loved it. i’m coming up on 20 now so i’m wondering if they’ll have another natural shift. if so i’m 
to see what scenarios i get lost in with them! i understand not everyone has the same experience but from my experience my characters changed as i did. they weren’t the fixed concepts i thought they were, they started to grow as i did! it sounds cliche but just try to relax and go with it 
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