Fear of loss

I have always feared death because I have never lost anyone who means anything to me. Atleast, since I've been alive. I'm afraid of my parents dying, or one of my siblings or friends dying and I think that shows in my daydreams. My characters are always expressing or feeling the fear of losing one another. When they feel and scared about it, I do. 

I thought I wasn't the type of daydreamer to get triggered by music, but it turns out I think I am. It only works with songs though. Like I've been listening to Trainwreck by James Arthur and I can feel the sadness of my characters. I think it's more overwhelming than the sadness I feel when I think of losing a real person in my life. It all relates back to my fear of losing the people in my daydreams, or of them losing one another. 

I think the only thing I can do about this is 'enjoy' the time I have with 'them'. In one of my other posts on this forum I expressed how I don't want to have these characters in my mind when I grow up, but that I don't want to lose them because they're my safe place. 

I don't really know how I'm gonna deal with this to be honest. I just thought I'd share it on here because it's been on my mind lately.