New Member! My Personal Experience With MD
Apr 12, 2021 1:41:56 GMT
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Post by maldreamer on Apr 12, 2021 1:41:56 GMT
Hi, so I just learned about MD, I was online listening to music and scrolling through a few comments, where someone mentioned creating stories in their head based on songs, someone replied to them, mentioning MD. So I looked it up and I now realize I have had this my whole life.
I create vivid, detailed stories/scenarios/conversations in my head all the time, and my main triggers for this is music and literature. When I listen to songs, my mind begins creating stories that fit the lyrics and themes of the songs, and when I read stories, I can't help but think of different scenarios that could happen between the characters, I find this especially happens when I'm not satisfied with how certain parts of a story are going. So I come up with situations in my head that I find more satisfying.
I spend hours every day doing this, and I don't have much control over it. I obsess over every small detail, and often block out everything around me. Sometimes I can pull myself out of my daydreaming, but most of the time I can't. I really struggle to function most days because my daydreaming often gets in the way of more important things.
I find this condition has both benefits and consequences. I enjoy getting lost in my head, it often relieving some of my stress and providing a nice escape from reality, though it can be incredibly distracting. I find myself doing this at school, keeping me from my work. Which has often resulted in me missing important lessons, overdue assignments, incomplete tests. I'm afraid it may mess with my upcoming graduation if I cannot focus more on my schoolwork. It distracts me from all of my responsibilities, and even from the people in my life, often zoning out of conversations, and ignoring family and friends.
Another negative is sometimes I get so invested in the stories I create, that even on the rare occasion when I can stop daydreaming, I don't want to.
A positive is that I'm a writer, and this condition is really great for my writing life.
This condition has become a bit of a coping mechanism in my life.
On top of having MD, I've been diagnosed with Dyscalculia, Depression, Anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder.
I've been able to live a fairly normal life despite my conditions, albeit with some difficulty and a lot of hurdles to overcome, so I am always open to advice from others.
I guess I'm really just looking for a place to vent with like minded people.
I create vivid, detailed stories/scenarios/conversations in my head all the time, and my main triggers for this is music and literature. When I listen to songs, my mind begins creating stories that fit the lyrics and themes of the songs, and when I read stories, I can't help but think of different scenarios that could happen between the characters, I find this especially happens when I'm not satisfied with how certain parts of a story are going. So I come up with situations in my head that I find more satisfying.
I spend hours every day doing this, and I don't have much control over it. I obsess over every small detail, and often block out everything around me. Sometimes I can pull myself out of my daydreaming, but most of the time I can't. I really struggle to function most days because my daydreaming often gets in the way of more important things.
I find this condition has both benefits and consequences. I enjoy getting lost in my head, it often relieving some of my stress and providing a nice escape from reality, though it can be incredibly distracting. I find myself doing this at school, keeping me from my work. Which has often resulted in me missing important lessons, overdue assignments, incomplete tests. I'm afraid it may mess with my upcoming graduation if I cannot focus more on my schoolwork. It distracts me from all of my responsibilities, and even from the people in my life, often zoning out of conversations, and ignoring family and friends.
Another negative is sometimes I get so invested in the stories I create, that even on the rare occasion when I can stop daydreaming, I don't want to.
A positive is that I'm a writer, and this condition is really great for my writing life.
This condition has become a bit of a coping mechanism in my life.
On top of having MD, I've been diagnosed with Dyscalculia, Depression, Anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder.
I've been able to live a fairly normal life despite my conditions, albeit with some difficulty and a lot of hurdles to overcome, so I am always open to advice from others.
I guess I'm really just looking for a place to vent with like minded people.
if I am passionate enough to continue it.