Post by abutterfly on May 16, 2021 7:47:29 GMT
Getting lost in my brain and in daydreams, I believe has altered my ability to stay grounded in the present. Planned occasions will kill my day as I spend endless minutes foreseeing my imaginary self in certain events and discusssions preparing myself for what to say or do if these made up events take place in order to prepare myself. In addition, if I know an event will take place, such as seeing a coworker the next day, I will tend to steer those conversations to a dialouge I have previously scripted out earlier, writing myself lines looking to portray myself a certain manner or an emotion I want to have around me. If we’re being real nothing hardly comes out the way we plan so when people say stuff you haven’t previously prepared yourself to, you become completely stuck, it’s like your brain just become jammed so we end up with anxiety and in my case incoherent mumbling and occasional stuttering. because we just don’t know what to do with ourselfs.
The anticipation feeds on itself truly. After these actual things happen I do become fixated on the shoulda, woulda, coulda getting lost in my daydreams of not only the future but the past as well, ceasing to exist in the present. A coping mechanism perhaps... traumatic events happen to everyone is this our brain trying to protect us from harmful places we have experienced. Essentially I’ve comes to terms with the two realities; in my mind and out
my body. Does this occur to anyone else is my question or am I just jinxing my brain to self diagnosis so I can feel better and begin a certain “healing” journey.
New user hear thank you for your time, I have already began to script out responses in my head and created backstories to you all
The anticipation feeds on itself truly. After these actual things happen I do become fixated on the shoulda, woulda, coulda getting lost in my daydreams of not only the future but the past as well, ceasing to exist in the present. A coping mechanism perhaps... traumatic events happen to everyone is this our brain trying to protect us from harmful places we have experienced. Essentially I’ve comes to terms with the two realities; in my mind and out
my body. Does this occur to anyone else is my question or am I just jinxing my brain to self diagnosis so I can feel better and begin a certain “healing” journey.
New user hear thank you for your time, I have already began to script out responses in my head and created backstories to you all
