|
Post by red7 on Jun 6, 2021 6:49:47 GMT
Hi there! I recently found this forum through a website talking about MD. I've had this since 3rd grade and up until recently it had always been a struggle. I always felt isolated from my friends and family and couldn't really develop lasting friendships or have trust in people. When I didn't know what this was, I assumed I had DID or Schizophrenia. I always knew that it was in my head but the characters I would create would never really be other characters, they would just be extensions/alternate versions of myself. Whenever I would feel stressed or overwhelmed, they would "take over" and calm me down. After many years of being absolutely terrified of what my daydreams would show me and other such stuff like that, I began to try controlling it to my own will. I figured that if it's all in my head, I could at least try and make it work for my benefit. This has never really been easy, especially when communicating it to others (which I never really have), but I feel like lately it has been getting easier. Of course I have had characters which do not help my mental state, but I found that if I translate it to real world problems, and solve/communicate them, they disappear or d*e from my world. I don't know if I'm doing something right or wrong. Whenever I get too emotional it starts happening more but I find that most of the time it actually helps me. I myself am a musician, and I'm trying to translate these characters and their stories in the real world, because I personally believe that there are some positive benefits to this. In controlled moderation, it can provide an escape from real world anxiety and stresses, and also give you space to solve problems. I also understand that my experiences are not the same as others, and I don't want to be ignorant to other's suffering due to MD. For about a 6 year span, I was in a major depressive slump due to MD, I had many panic/anxiety attacks, and I felt extremely alone because I thought I was the only one with this. I was worried that my parents would lock me up or that my friends, If they would out, would make fun of me or bully me. I mainly am here just to talk to others about it who understand. Have a great day!
|
|
|
hi!
Jun 6, 2021 22:26:22 GMT
Post by Sam on Jun 6, 2021 22:26:22 GMT
Welcome to the forum!
|
|