Post by peagles on Jun 12, 2021 20:56:34 GMT
So I'll start of saying I'm not the best writer 
. When I was younger I would talk to myself all the time and my mom didn't think much of it bc I was young. My mom would take me to work on the days I didn't have school and she had pens,pencils,a staple remover office supplies, I would drink coffee nap and dream. I would play with the staple remover which I could the vampire bc it had fang like appearances and the lens and pencils and whatever office supplies my monkey me use I would play with them and my imagination would run wild. Once I was older and not going to work with my mom on days off I had nothing to do I guess once I was more conscious of my behavior, I started talking to myself commenting on things and I liked to think out loud if you will but I only did it when I was alone. I am the only child and I don't know my dad and my mom was overprotective I sent my childhood with my grandma most of the time and she would be outside gardening,so I had all day to myself. My mom wouldn't let me go outside and play with other children I was only aloud to go to school and stay indoors unless my grandma or mom was with me my cousin came over when they were younger so they kept me company. My grandma was losing her mind and I stoped seeing my cousins as much and my mom was gone all the time I was too scared to go outside bc of my mom so I was inside watching tv, I slept a lot all my life over 12 hours a day but can u blame me. So anyways I switch schools and here is the beginning of the end, I wasn't liked I was builled when I told my mom she said I was ungrateful and selfish ,my mom was working all the time so I had no one my grandma hot a retraining order on my mom for no reason so I was alone. Into my 2nd year of school my mom finally got me a phone and I was on it and I met a guy and I think this is where my dreaming took of I was already 
out loud but now I had something to think of, I would think of him 24/7 I would multitasks on school at home all the time I would dream of him in my dream and I would talk when need in reality and be able to do other things. But it was bad in the beginning bc I would talk to him so I finally had someone, that is until I didn't have my phone and my mom shamed me the whole summer for talking to him. So I would sleep and dream and the dreams were so vivid when I was alone that depending on if it was a bad dream I would cry . This when I started to have ocd dermatillomania) a skin picking disorder , I would dream of him and pick with my thumbs I couldn't stop once I started they would bleed really bad and looked terrible I picked with my lips as well. I didn't harm any other part of myself. This went on for years. I will stop typing bc I think I said enough , and I'll finish another time.
. When I was younger I would talk to myself all the time and my mom didn't think much of it bc I was young. My mom would take me to work on the days I didn't have school and she had pens,pencils,a staple remover office supplies, I would drink coffee nap and dream. I would play with the staple remover which I could the vampire bc it had fang like appearances and the lens and pencils and whatever office supplies my monkey me use I would play with them and my imagination would run wild. Once I was older and not going to work with my mom on days off I had nothing to do I guess once I was more conscious of my behavior, I started talking to myself commenting on things and I liked to think out loud if you will but I only did it when I was alone. I am the only child and I don't know my dad and my mom was overprotective I sent my childhood with my grandma most of the time and she would be outside gardening,so I had all day to myself. My mom wouldn't let me go outside and play with other children I was only aloud to go to school and stay indoors unless my grandma or mom was with me my cousin came over when they were younger so they kept me company. My grandma was losing her mind and I stoped seeing my cousins as much and my mom was gone all the time I was too scared to go outside bc of my mom so I was inside watching tv, I slept a lot all my life over 12 hours a day but can u blame me. So anyways I switch schools and here is the beginning of the end, I wasn't liked I was builled when I told my mom she said I was ungrateful and selfish ,my mom was working all the time so I had no one my grandma hot a retraining order on my mom for no reason so I was alone. Into my 2nd year of school my mom finally got me a phone and I was on it and I met a guy and I think this is where my dreaming took of I was already 
out loud but now I had something to think of, I would think of him 24/7 I would multitasks on school at home all the time I would dream of him in my dream and I would talk when need in reality and be able to do other things. But it was bad in the beginning bc I would talk to him so I finally had someone, that is until I didn't have my phone and my mom shamed me the whole summer for talking to him. So I would sleep and dream and the dreams were so vivid when I was alone that depending on if it was a bad dream I would cry . This when I started to have ocd dermatillomania) a skin picking disorder , I would dream of him and pick with my thumbs I couldn't stop once I started they would bleed really bad and looked terrible I picked with my lips as well. I didn't harm any other part of myself. This went on for years. I will stop typing bc I think I said enough , and I'll finish another time.