Ari
New Daydreamer
Hi! I'm Ari, and probably have been suffering from MD since childhood and want to improve.
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Post by Ari on Jun 18, 2021 4:26:32 GMT
I'm halfway through high-school and feel like I've gotten nowhere and a part of me wants to blame MD. Since I was a very little kid, daydreaming was all I did and that hasn't really changed. MDing has cost me time, connections with friends, my relationship with by parents, my childhood even. All that time I was daydreaming, I could've been doing things and developing skills! Now, I'm not even good at anything. I'm curious about how others feel and I guess some help on how to process my own feelings. Are any of you angry with having MD because of what it cost you? I'm very upset with the idea of wasting my life due to MD. How about you all? What was your cost of MD?
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Marcydel
Junior Daydreamer
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Post by Marcydel on Jun 18, 2021 6:45:20 GMT
Yeah it cost me. I feel like I’m just making pathetic excuses when I say that MD cost me everything, but I’ve been in the same pattern my entire life and the further I get into college, the less I can get away with with my current pattern, and I learned a long time ago that I can’t change it. And I’ve really tried. Multiple times, and it’s colossally upset and disappointed me over and over again. It’s kicking my butt and I’m actually gearing up right now to give my parents some pretty bad news that’s going to really anger and disappoint them because I can’t pull myself together. Hope that answered your question.
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Post by cyamy123 on Jun 21, 2021 19:49:00 GMT
Yes, relationships and the chance of having children.
I started MD in my teens to escape my miserable life at the time. By the time I was in my 20's I had never had a boyfriend and if I did meet someone I didn't want a relationship getting in the way of my daydreaming. Even if I really liked that person, I just couldn't push myself into getting involved, so I would always choose MD over them. I met my husband when I was 40 and he was my first ever boyfriend and I think by that time, I had the strength and the confidence to say to myself "I need to do this" and to choose between MD and a 'normal ' life.
My husband is 16 years older than me and had kids from his first marriage, so didn't want anymore. When we were first together I completely stopped MD, but over the last couple of years it's come back and I think that's because I'm not happy in the marriage.
I think that if I didn't have MD I would of probably gotten married and had kids. I feel like its taken that away from me and at 44 it's too late for children now.
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Post by Bluejay on Jun 23, 2021 18:51:32 GMT
Oof. I don't even know where to start. It's a vicious cycle. It began when there was some void that needed filling and then became the reason there are more voids. I MD more and more to fill all of them and create more and more because of it. It's so saddening. Honestly pretty much all aspects of my life are down bad because of MD. Studies? Can't focus. Friendships? Preferred MD over them all. Life skills? I don't have time, I have to MD for 7 hrs straight. Dating? No one can compare to my MD partners. I hate  about how different it would all be if I had not spent my entire life mding. |
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about how different it would all be if I had not spent my entire life mding.