Post by madrigallizzie on Sept 22, 2021 19:59:18 GMT
I started daydreaming as a child. My mother was ill with schizophrenia and i did not have a father. I was terribly lonely so I started daydreaming and creating a world where people loved me. I also experienced severe trauma because there was nobody to protect me.I knew this was probably not healthy but I couldn't stop. To this day I continue this alternate reality probably out of habit because my life is full of people that love me and I have had 25 years of therapy. My life is full but still I create these elaborate stories with detailed characters and sub stories. I am 56 and just now am I learning that I am not the only one who experiences MDD I haven't told my husband because he would probably tell me to stop daydreaming when he notices me "spacing out"yet, I can't stop or maybe i don't want to.
I feel you! I started daydreaming when I was younger out of loneliness and it became a habit I can't stop. While I do wish to stop because it really effects my daily life, I don't actually really want to stop. They are my main source of comfort in life, even though my life has improved since I started daydreaming and I have family and friends around me. I had no idea other people experienced this until recently.
As an only child I had to fill out many different roles for different characters in my fantasies and day dreams these posts absolutely feel familiar. It's sounds as if OP is generally a well rounded and self reflective person which are great traits to have, you are not your past and it sounds like you've done alot in the face of adversity. I also would not wish to lose my day dreams if I had the choice even if it meant I was better at focusing on things.