Looking at trauma help on youtube Just like that my thought about my daydreaming popped into my head about how people get really imaginative if they experience trauma. Learning about our inner child. thinking of a day when your a child just focusing on that aspect.
So when I was doing this and talking to hear I light bulb went off that I spend more time giving my inner child all the things she wanted to do and SELF SOOTHING her because I was extremely sick growing up worse memory getting a migraine at my birthday party was about 5 and my mom rushing me upstairs and closed the curtains and put me in he bed and she let the party keep going because my brother and I use to have joined party. I was so sick and upset. It ok my mother had another one and some of friends stayed at my house until I woke up. every time I feel venerable I have to make sure I keep my inner child happy and it come and goes reminding me how I was when I grew up. Still the habit is here when something happens and how I feel at that time it clicks so I don't get too emotionally involved to the point I am overwhelmed and panic am I going to be ok with what the situation is.
At my age and people knowing about my daydreaming my feeling get a bit childish fast and I have to calm them down. other feelings with growing up is what did I do wrong I trigger my daydreaming only to self soothing again I can't even have a scary daydreaming without having another one to calm down from the last one. I always need reassurance when anxious which get so bad.
That s my light bulb experience today anyone that reads this do you feel the same if you think about it?