Post by thedolphinbaby57 on Jan 18, 2022 4:55:40 GMT
Hello Madders! My name's Breanna and I have a question to ask. Does anyone ever be doing anything like let's say cleaning, reading, working or even just talking to someone and you just space out? No trigger, no mental crash you just go blank and your mind starts to wonder? It happens to me a lot and it makes every living day super hard for me. I'm typing this right now and can't even type a full sentence without going blank. It's so weird and so frustrating. I can be doing something like watching a you tube video and then my mind will go blank and the next thing I know I'm daydreaming for 2 hours. Afterwards, I just sit or lay back down like nothing happened and it happens over and over again. I don't know what to do because I know my Madd has gotten out of control at this point. I can be doing the simplest thing like grabbing a drink and then spacing out not knowing what I'm doing or done forgot what I was/was about to do. It doesn't help that when I do daydream I end up making a lot of weird facial expressions and body movements and then I feel like I really can't control myself then. Does anyone else experience this too? If so, let me know and how you deal with it because I sure am struggling.
Definitely. I even tried super simplifying my wardrobe this year so that I would have less things to distract/ trigger me in the mornings. I bought five shirts the same and five pairs of shorts the same. All I have to do is get to the cupboard and put my new uniform on, yet, it still takes me 2hours to get dressed most mornings!
Once when I was at my worst (a teenager) it took me three days to get dressed (I had run out of groceries and needed to get dressed so that I could go and buy food - I was pretty hungry by the time I got to the shops).
Things got better when I got a full time job. I worked as a Blacksmith for ten years. I got to use my brain creatively in real life and I worked in a team, so people were constantly pulling me back into reality. I also got plenty of excersize throughout the day. I still daydreamed for a big part of the day - with the full hand gestures, facial expressions and whispering - and I often resented people for interrupting my fantasy time but I was able to function well enough to keep my job, have a small social life and get a good night's sleep.
I injured my back a few years ago and had to leave Blacksmithing and now the daily struggle has returned. I know that finding another rewarding job would probably help but I can't stay present long enough to look for one!
I have stared seeing a good psychologist now so hopefully things might start to shift!
Post by thedolphinbaby57 on Jan 18, 2022 21:57:05 GMT
Thanks for responding! It's nice knowing that I'm not alone in it. I'm glad you're getting help for it and was somewhat able to ground yourself in the present. I feel like I have to distract myself in order to keep from this from happening. But either way my fantasies still try and find a way to take me away from reality. I do hope things get better for you in the near future! It's hard to get anything down when you have a whole movie playing in your head.