Post by eren on Dec 20, 2018 2:02:49 GMT
I'm not really sure what to include here, but I'm happy to have found an active MD community! I'm 19 and you can call me Eren. I have 3 dogs who I love, but I'm very bad at human relationships 
. I've struggled with various mental illnesses basically my whole life. I don't see the point in listing my diagnoses, but I'll likely reference things I've struggled with. I'm a zoology major and currently semi-functional. Last year was shit for me, but now I'm doing decent so I have time to try to work on understanding my daydream issue.
I have had compulsive & complicated daydreaming habits for as long as I can remember. I classify my daydream universes into 6 distinct eras. However, my current universe has been with me for almost 6 years now, and I don't see it changing anytime soon.
I started to worry about my daydreams around 4 years ago. At that point, my whole life revolved around my dreams and they were dictating my emotions and actions. I realized they were unusual, but I knew they weren't hallucinations. Maybe mild delusions, yes, but I understood my "imaginary friends" weren't real (even if it feels like they are more real than physical people). Through the good 'ol internet I found out about MD, and it definitely brought me lots of comfort to know I'm not alone. I joined WMN, but I was too overwhelmed to express anything about a world that I never talked about and felt too complicated to verbalize. I told a psychologist who I trusted about my daydreams and we were able to talk through a little bit, but she moved a few months later and I haven't found a psych who I've trusted enough to explain again.
My current world was originally built off of basically the only manga/anime I've ever cared about (I mean, disregarding like Pokemon, Voltron, Bakugan, and Digimon when I was a kid). My world is basically "in the future" of the manga's canon. However, it diverges off in the middle of manga. I embody the protagonist, or he embodies me? I can't really explain it, but we're the same person. My daydream world isn't too different from the real-world. The majority of the day my daydreams are mundane. For example, I'm writing this therefor my daydream world is me (but not exactly me - it's this character) writing - except maybe my surroundings are different, I'm with different characters, I'm writing something different, and my thoughts/worries/plans are different. But the action is the same. The actual "action scenes" of my daydreams (or anything that heavily diverges from reality) arises when I'm doing nothing and just
(and I pace and talk to myself if I can). I know this doesn't make too much sense
I guess the best way to describe it is that I'm living two worlds at once. My actions are mirrored on two different planes of reality, different dimensions. However, when heavy action/drama or whatever happens to my counterpart I freeze up/dissociate and just "daydream" what is happening in the other dimension. But I'm kind of two people at once, but not in a multiple-personalities way... because we're the same person/same personality/same mind. I'm one person who is two people and I'm two people who are one.Still doesn't make any sense. I'm 
how to better explain it.
So yeah,... That's basically my situation. I look forward to meeting new people and possibly figuring out what exactly is going on in my brain. I'm constantly reaching for a good way to explain my daydreams. But mostly I'm happy to have the ability to meet people who understand.
. I've struggled with various mental illnesses basically my whole life. I don't see the point in listing my diagnoses, but I'll likely reference things I've struggled with. I'm a zoology major and currently semi-functional. Last year was shit for me, but now I'm doing decent so I have time to try to work on understanding my daydream issue. I have had compulsive & complicated daydreaming habits for as long as I can remember. I classify my daydream universes into 6 distinct eras. However, my current universe has been with me for almost 6 years now, and I don't see it changing anytime soon.
I started to worry about my daydreams around 4 years ago. At that point, my whole life revolved around my dreams and they were dictating my emotions and actions. I realized they were unusual, but I knew they weren't hallucinations. Maybe mild delusions, yes, but I understood my "imaginary friends" weren't real (even if it feels like they are more real than physical people). Through the good 'ol internet I found out about MD, and it definitely brought me lots of comfort to know I'm not alone. I joined WMN, but I was too overwhelmed to express anything about a world that I never talked about and felt too complicated to verbalize. I told a psychologist who I trusted about my daydreams and we were able to talk through a little bit, but she moved a few months later and I haven't found a psych who I've trusted enough to explain again.
My current world was originally built off of basically the only manga/anime I've ever cared about (I mean, disregarding like Pokemon, Voltron, Bakugan, and Digimon when I was a kid). My world is basically "in the future" of the manga's canon. However, it diverges off in the middle of manga. I embody the protagonist, or he embodies me? I can't really explain it, but we're the same person. My daydream world isn't too different from the real-world. The majority of the day my daydreams are mundane. For example, I'm writing this therefor my daydream world is me (but not exactly me - it's this character) writing - except maybe my surroundings are different, I'm with different characters, I'm writing something different, and my thoughts/worries/plans are different. But the action is the same. The actual "action scenes" of my daydreams (or anything that heavily diverges from reality) arises when I'm doing nothing and just
(and I pace and talk to myself if I can). I guess the best way to describe it is that I'm living two worlds at once. My actions are mirrored on two different planes of reality, different dimensions. However, when heavy action/drama or whatever happens to my counterpart I freeze up/dissociate and just "daydream" what is happening in the other dimension. But I'm kind of two people at once, but not in a multiple-personalities way... because we're the same person/same personality/same mind. I'm one person who is two people and I'm two people who are one.
how to better explain it.So yeah,
... That's basically my situation. I look forward to meeting new people and possibly figuring out what exactly is going on in my brain. I'm constantly reaching for a good way to explain my daydreams. But mostly I'm happy to have the ability to meet people who understand. 
