elioelioelio
New Daydreamer
I think too much and care too much but tomorrow I’ll do better
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Post by elioelioelio on Feb 25, 2019 23:46:34 GMT
So, since I’ve come to terms with having MD I’ve found myself suppressing it. I find myself having a shower and playing music and trying not to do it because I feel like there’s a negative stigma towards something that people don’t really know about. I don’t want to suppress it, I actually found comfort in doing it until I realised it was bad or almost like an addiction and for the whole of last week I was doing it. Out of anxiousness, out of boredom. I went out with my friends at the weekend and prior, I messaged one of my friends saying I had discovered it. I didn’t say it was about me but she guessed immediately and when we were both drunk we were able to talk about it freely. But now I’m scared that I’ve lost the ability to do it naturally because half of me is  I shouldn’t and the other is I’m forcing it or I’m losing time or just general anxiousness? Finally, has anyone experienced this as well as having severe sleep paralysis ? I get it quite regularly and would like thoughts in case they could be linked etc? Sorry so many thoughts just have to let it out somewhere I guess |
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Post by Lucy on Feb 26, 2019 20:26:28 GMT
So, since I’ve come to terms with having MD I’ve found myself suppressing it. I find myself having a shower and playing music and trying not to do it because I feel like there’s a negative stigma towards something that people don’t really know about. I don’t want to suppress it, I actually found comfort in doing it until I realised it was bad or almost like an addiction and for the whole of last week I was doing it. Out of anxiousness, out of boredom. I went out with my friends at the weekend and prior, I messaged one of my friends saying I had discovered it. I didn’t say it was about me but she guessed immediately and when we were both drunk we were able to talk about it freely. But now I’m scared that I’ve lost the ability to do it naturally because half of me is I shouldn’t and the other is I’m forcing it or I’m losing time or just general anxiousness? I feel that I've been trying to suppress MD too. At school I have to keep nagging at myself to focus and not MD but I can't help it and I end up slipping into one without realising. I definitely can't go through a whole day without MDing and it does feel like an addiction. Maybe if you're feeling anxious about MD or feel as though you're losing time because of it you should find the times in the day when you like the MD the most(for example I like to MD in the morning and when I'm in the shower) and try and let that be you're "MD time". It would mean that you're not really losing time or not being productive because that time isn't meant for anything else. It might also help you to MD less if that's what you want too. I don't think you should feel bad about MDing if its a coping mechanism for you because we all have/need one. Hope this was helpful!  |
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elioelioelio
New Daydreamer
I think too much and care too much but tomorrow I’ll do better
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Post by elioelioelio on Mar 1, 2019 1:05:57 GMT
Hey thanks so much for your advice!
I’ve definitely taken it on board and allocated parts of my day to MD.
I find that now, before I go to sleep, instead of doing it I just read a book instead and then consciously drift off from there I guess!
Thanks so much for your advice!
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Post by alvi on Mar 25, 2019 15:12:04 GMT
Off the subject of DD but as for the sleep paralysis you could have a magnesium deficiency. You can by a magnesium body spray or tablets and see if they help you at all.
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Post by tinyalien on Mar 26, 2019 13:25:45 GMT
I wouldn’t suppress it if I was you. Just ride the wave until more treatment options are available, only because in moments where I feel like I’m suppressing it . Especially knowing what this is now, I find that knowing about MD makes me more conscious of it therefore I sometimes try not to do or not to go overboard with it and trying not to DD gives me an overwhelming feeling of anxiety and stress because my body is feeling anxious and uneasy and wants me to move around and my brain can’t focus on anything else but avoiding getting up to pace. Which makes me feel like I’m going crazy. But that’s just me.
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I shouldn’t and the other is 
