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Post by lonewolf009 on Mar 16, 2019 13:21:39 GMT
Hello, I just joined and will post an intro later. I wanted to find out more first about MD. I've been zoning out/daydreaming about random stuff since I was a kid, and although it affected my ability to pay attention in class in high school and college I didn't consider it a problem and just thought it was a wierd quirk of mine and that everyone daydreams to some extent, maybe I just have a more active imagination.
Recently though I've been having struggles with mental health, like depression, anxiety,and almost constant panic. The past two months have been extra intense and I started seeing/ imagining things to a point that alarmed me. I tried to figure out what's going on and did research on the internet. I was reading about "instrusive thoughts" and that sounded like me because I experienced two of the examples given: a sensation that someone is going to attack (my imagination made that specifically a man with a baseball bat standing behind me), and yelling in church (but I wasn't at church when I imagined this and yelled at a specific person for a specific statement they never made in real life).
The internet defines intrusive thoughts as thoughts that are involuntary and cause distress. Does MD do the same? I occasionally dream up storylines, more than just thoughts and sensations like a man with a baseball bat, but actual settings and situations that are disturbing. Many othe times though I'll also dream up things that are nice, like once I was having lunch at home and suddenly in my head I was on vacation somewhere pleasent. But then I'd have these disturbing fantasies and they would come back over and over, sometimes every few seconds, almost like OCD or something? I don't know. It got to a point that I felt like I lived in another imaginary world more than mine, and that I liked that world better. On some days it was so bad I'd get happy when I came back to the real world for a few minutes, only to get sucked into the other one again because the pain of the real world just wasn't tolerable.
The fantasies were intensfied at the same time I had a major depressive episode, so I think it correlates. Now my depression has lifted, so I don't get the fantasies all thr time like before and I feel more stable atm. I still daydream a lot though.
Also, when I zone out I pace, have repititive movements, make facial expressions, whisper and laugh during fantasies. I listen to music a TON and can't live without that. I can do this for more than an hour.
Does it sound like I have MD? I was worried about schizophrenia, but I read MD is different because you know you are fantasizing. I do know that it's fantasy, but how much does that awareness count when I hardly seem to know when I'm making gestures or talking out loud? Also, can MD be involuntary like intrusive thoughts? I don't even really understand what the difference is. Can anyone clarify for me please? Thank you.
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Post by lonewolf009 on Mar 23, 2019 13:35:58 GMT
Sounds like maladaptive daydreaming mixed with an obsessive-compulsive disorder, which seems to be a common trait in maladaptive daydreamers. I consider MD to be an addicition. Unfortunately, there is still so little info on MD. :( Thank you very much for your response. I think you are right that it is MD mixed with other things, and that is interesting that OCD is common among those with MD. I am actually not getting the maladaptive daydreams as much as before because I am feeling better overall so I think something else might be going on with me health wise and the MD was a form of coping maybe? Anyway, thank you for the response, it is much appreciated.
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Post by lonewolf009 on Mar 26, 2019 20:08:12 GMT
Yeah, probably a form of coping but, it becomes maladaptive when you do it too much. I think a good comparison would be like doing drugs to reieve stress. Maybe you won't be so stressed but, what new problems come from doing all the drugs? I've never done drugs so that didn't come to mind, but now that you mention it it does make sense. So then the trick is to try not to do the "drugs" too much? That's tough though if you are stressed all the time. What a predicament.
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Post by Sam on Mar 26, 2019 20:15:46 GMT
Yeah, probably a form of coping but, it becomes maladaptive when you do it too much. I think a good comparison would be like doing drugs to reieve stress. Maybe you won't be so stressed but, what new problems come from doing all the drugs? I've never done drugs so that didn't come to mind, but now that you mention it it does make sense. So then the trick is to try not to do the "drugs" too much? Lol That's tough though if you are stressed all the time. What a predicament. I have the same problem with using daydreaming as a coping method for stress and also being stressed out all the time. I think the best solution to the problem is to find other coping mechanisms for the stress, ones that are more healthy and helpful in the long term than daydreaming is. Then, when you're feeling stressed and the resulting urge to daydream, you can implement one of the other coping skills. The main problem with trying to not daydream when you use it as a coping method is that if you don't replace it with something else, you're essentially leaving yourself up a creek without a paddle. As long as you don't have any other coping mechanisms to use, you are always going to fall back on daydreaming.
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Post by lonewolf009 on Apr 7, 2019 8:43:37 GMT
I've never done drugs so that didn't come to mind, but now that you mention it it does make sense. So then the trick is to try not to do the "drugs" too much? That's tough though if you are stressed all the time. What a predicament. I have the same problem with using daydreaming as a coping method for stress and also being stressed out all the time. I think the best solution to the problem is to find other coping mechanisms for the stress, ones that are more healthy and helpful in the long term than daydreaming is. Then, when you're feeling stressed and the resulting urge to daydream, you can implement one of the other coping skills. The main problem with trying to not daydream when you use it as a coping method is that if you don't replace it with something else, you're essentially leaving yourself up a creek without a paddle. As long as you don't have any other coping mechanisms to use, you are always going to fall back on daydreaming. Yes, you are right Sam. Thanks for the input. Unfortunately for me my options are limited and when I run out of the healthier alternatives then I just have nothing left to go off of. I have more problems than one, so it gets complicated. There are times when daydreaming is the only thing I have left, and lately even that has been failing me. I'll keep trying though. If new opportunities ever open up for me, I will definitely jump on it if I can.
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