Post by hurricane on Apr 16, 2019 17:37:02 GMT
Hi everyone 
My name is not something I'd rather share (sorry), but I can tell you that I am 21 years old and I live in Belgium. I found out about MD by accident, only a couple of days ago. I decided to look it up, mainly because it had the word 'daydreaming' in it, and I have been trying to find out what is wrong with me for years now. And I guess this is it. I'm relieved that I can finally give it a name, and also that I'm not the only one who suffers from it. That I can finally share my story.
I had many imaginary friends when I was younger, because I was a lonely girl with only two to three close friends. But it felt like my imaginary friends never really left. I kept daydreaming about them, I kept making up stories. As I grew older, I started watching more TV, and these imaginary people turned into fictional characters. I started daydreaming about living in their world (really, I fought zombies and everything). When I was 17, I was home from school for months because I was severley depressed. Being home for so long only made the daydreams worse. I started talking, feeling, acting as if I was in an actual fantasy. I was in a world with characters and when my story ended, I went on to the next world (for example, I could be daydreaming about Divergent and when my story ended there, I turned into a different person with a different name and started a new life in the world of another show or movie).
Close to my 18th birthday, I said to myself that I had to stop acting this way. I was almost an adult, and adults don't talk to fictional characters, right? But that was easier said that done. In fact, three years later I'm still struggling. Every morning when I wake up, I start dreaming. When I'm in class, I think about my stories and what I'm going to do next. And at night, I spend most of my time daydreaming instead of sleeping. It's a real struggle, especially now that I've lost control. I often catch myself making movements, mouthing or whispering words.
Somewhere in 2013 (age 15) I started writing fanfiction so I could put my creativity into stories. In 2017 (age 19), I created a fanaccount on Instagram about different TV shows for the same reason; put my creativity into edits. It helps, but only when I'm inspired.
It started as a coping mechanism. I was bullied, depressed, alone. I needed someone to talk to. But now it's gotten out of hand and I don't know how to stop this.
So that's it. That's me. This turned out longer than I thought it would, sorry. Anyway, I'm really glad I'm not alone in this.
My name is not something I'd rather share (sorry), but I can tell you that I am 21 years old and I live in Belgium. I found out about MD by accident, only a couple of days ago. I decided to look it up, mainly because it had the word 'daydreaming' in it, and I have been trying to find out what is wrong with me for years now. And I guess this is it. I'm relieved that I can finally give it a name, and also that I'm not the only one who suffers from it. That I can finally share my story.
I had many imaginary friends when I was younger, because I was a lonely girl with only two to three close friends. But it felt like my imaginary friends never really left. I kept daydreaming about them, I kept making up stories. As I grew older, I started watching more TV, and these imaginary people turned into fictional characters. I started daydreaming about living in their world (really, I fought zombies and everything). When I was 17, I was home from school for months because I was severley depressed. Being home for so long only made the daydreams worse. I started talking, feeling, acting as if I was in an actual fantasy. I was in a world with characters and when my story ended, I went on to the next world (for example, I could be daydreaming about Divergent and when my story ended there, I turned into a different person with a different name and started a new life in the world of another show or movie).
Close to my 18th birthday, I said to myself that I had to stop acting this way. I was almost an adult, and adults don't talk to fictional characters, right? But that was easier said that done. In fact, three years later I'm still struggling. Every morning when I wake up, I start dreaming. When I'm in class, I think about my stories and what I'm going to do next. And at night, I spend most of my time daydreaming instead of sleeping. It's a real struggle, especially now that I've lost control. I often catch myself making movements, mouthing or whispering words.
Somewhere in 2013 (age 15) I started writing fanfiction so I could put my creativity into stories. In 2017 (age 19), I created a fanaccount on Instagram about different TV shows for the same reason; put my creativity into edits. It helps, but only when I'm inspired.
It started as a coping mechanism. I was bullied, depressed, alone. I needed someone to talk to. But now it's gotten out of hand and I don't know how to stop this.
So that's it. That's me. This turned out longer than I thought it would, sorry. Anyway, I'm really glad I'm not alone in this.
