Post by lisabethnow on May 15, 2019 0:04:08 GMT
I’ve really never used any forums like this before, but i’ve been feeling so unsure of things recently. I never thought about my daydreaming as a problem before, I knew it had caused me difficulties concentrating in school and at social events but I always was so happy to daydream. I used to get so 
about going to sleep every night because I could lie in bed and create both wonderful and sometimes horrible fantasies. It wasn’t even like I was doing it, it’s more like watching a film. I spend so much time 
and replaying daydreams, I constantly rewrite and edit my daydreams. I score them to songs that I think fit them, I change dialogue and endings of daydreams in a way to make them seem more realistic. I love being a creative person and I always thought my daydreams were a route that helped guide me to making decisions and overcoming anxieties. I’ve had issues with my mental health since I was a child, when I was very young I was so scared of my thoughts because I felt like they could come true. I would become so upset and panicked as my daydreams would run away from my control and become scary, like my anxieties were seeping into this safe space. I normally love to dream, it gives me great comfort but over the course of this last year I’ve felt more concerned about it. I worry I’m not living and that it is unhealthy to create such unrealistic scenarios, but I find it impossible to stop, it’s like second nature to me. When I would ask my friends about how they daydream, I always felt so shocked and weird about myself. I assumed everyone was like this and only recently I’ve looked into MD. I know that daydreams are by in large, harmless. But I just feel really alone in this, I don’t know how much people could understand. I’d love to hear other thoughts and experiences with this, I want to hear the extensive and detailed scripts that others play out in their heads. All in all I think it is powerful and fascinating to be able to create so much out of imagination, but it is overwhelming and I’d love to feel less isolated with this. Sorry for the long post ❤️
about going to sleep every night because I could lie in bed and create both wonderful and sometimes horrible fantasies. It wasn’t even like I was doing it, it’s more like watching a film. I spend so much time 
and replaying daydreams, I constantly rewrite and edit my daydreams. I score them to songs that I think fit them, I change dialogue and endings of daydreams in a way to make them seem more realistic. I love being a creative person and I always thought my daydreams were a route that helped guide me to making decisions and overcoming anxieties. I’ve had issues with my mental health since I was a child, when I was very young I was so scared of my thoughts because I felt like they could come true. I would become so upset and panicked as my daydreams would run away from my control and become scary, like my anxieties were seeping into this safe space. I normally love to dream, it gives me great comfort but over the course of this last year I’ve felt more concerned about it. I worry I’m not living and that it is unhealthy to create such unrealistic scenarios, but I find it impossible to stop, it’s like second nature to me. When I would ask my friends about how they daydream, I always felt so shocked and weird about myself. I assumed everyone was like this and only recently I’ve looked into MD. I know that daydreams are by in large, harmless. But I just feel really alone in this, I don’t know how much people could understand. I’d love to hear other thoughts and experiences with this, I want to hear the extensive and detailed scripts that others play out in their heads. All in all I think it is powerful and fascinating to be able to create so much out of imagination, but it is overwhelming and I’d love to feel less isolated with this. Sorry for the long post ❤️
