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Post by tinyalien on Jun 13, 2019 15:06:06 GMT
Having MD is such an internal battle. For a while I had been feeling like I was doing better. I was very busy I guess and I felt like I wasn’t daydreaming as much and I was so distracted in fulfilling my own goals that I had began to take control of my life and my head.
And then literally out of nowhere within these last two weeks things became a little harder. I was becoming low on money and I started picking up more days at work which was a stress on me. Working more completely distracted me from my own projects and I began just going to work and going home. I didn’t see any of my friends during this time and eventually at work and at home I just disassociated and I barely spoke to anyone and lived in my mind. Became so sluggish and idle. My friends invited me out last night and I had to drag myself there. I showed up 2 hours late. For someone with MD I am pretty outgoing but didn’t feel like talking or interacting much. I just couldn’t be who I wanted to be or who I usually am. I reflect on last month where I was feeling like I had cured myself. These ups and downs are affecting me a lot . I just want to be STABLE. Mentally focused. In many ways I feel more scattered and distant then usual.
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Post by Wynn on Jun 13, 2019 18:25:54 GMT
I don't have anything helpful to suggest, I just wanted to let you know I hear you and I'm in the same mind space right now. to you!
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Post by trex56 on Jun 14, 2019 11:33:46 GMT
Hi tinyalien, It's completely normal to do well for a while and then have a setback. When you progress toward something it's not always going to be linear. Remember that having those setbacks is completely normal. Is there any way you can make changes at work so you have a better balance and maybe more time for yourself? Or at least take a day off soon?
I hope things get better for you soon!
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