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Post by Wynn on Jun 25, 2019 20:21:56 GMT
I walk about 2 - 3 miles a day most days, and the other evening I was walking...it was hot and I was tired and I was pushing myself to make it up a steep hill. I told myself "(Character name) could do this easily, wearing a ton of gear with no sleep." I was dragging, so I put her on for a second (this sounds very multiple personality disorder but I don't mean it like that. I just pretended to be her to get up the hill) and I heard Character's brother tell her "Ugh, (her name) I can't work with you like this." I instantly felt sad and a little irritated and my whole mood changed and it took me half a block to get back to myself and get over 'his' remark. I was composing a rebuttal to him in my head and getting all worked up about it when I kicked myself out of daydreaming by telling myself what are you doing? This doesn't even matter. He's not even real!
I still feel a little crazy about it and I've been purposely keeping myself from daydreaming triggers since then. I just thought it was weird, that's never happened before. I really hope I'm not losing my mind... is anyone else familiar with this?
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Post by katie on Jun 25, 2019 21:24:47 GMT
Was it an inner voice or your MDD voice if you get me in your head and no you are not losing your mind? Sometimes I start narrating situation as my main character and she says weird things back to me that I wouldn't say. It kinda freaked me out a bit. But I have lost my mind and heard voices due to other mental health issues so I would know the difference.
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Post by alvi on Jun 25, 2019 22:55:22 GMT
I think if you can use your dd character to motivate you then its a good thing. Its better that they are used for something positive then just causing procrastination and avoidance behaviour. I don't know why your characters brother would say something negative, maybe its a self esteem issue that when you were doing something positive for yourself a part of your brain and imagination decided to self sabotage you?
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Post by Sam on Jun 26, 2019 1:36:21 GMT
I think if you can use your dd character to motivate you then its a good thing. Its better that they are used for something positive then just causing procrastination and avoidance behaviour. I don't know why your characters brother would say something negative, maybe its a self esteem issue that when you were doing something positive for yourself a part of your brain and imagination decided to self sabotage you? My brain does this a lot. I think that when we daydream we're transferring a lot of thoughts that we would normally have either subconsciously or as negative self talk (or even positive self talk, literally anything that we might normally think, subconsciously or consciously) into the dialogue of our characters. I've noticed that, for myself, sometimes if I'm feeling crappy or dejected or like I'm not worth anything, those thoughts come across as things that my daydream characters (usually my real life friends) are saying to me. For example: Say you're feeling positive, like Wynn was. But you still have that little subconscious bit of you, which non-MDers have too, that tells you mean things. Most people would probably hear that as negative self talk, you know, talking to yourself and putting yourself down (like when you achieve something and then your brain tells you that you're a failure even though you literally just achieved something). But because of our tendency to daydream and common tendency to base daydreams off of real life (and in Wynn's case because she was literally already daydreaming), that negative self talk comes across as something a daydream character is telling us rather than as something that we're telling ourselves (even though technically all daydreaming is us just talking to ourselves, though it feels different because its in a different medium).
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Post by Wynn on Jun 26, 2019 4:01:30 GMT
Sam you are amazing at this!
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