Today was my first day of going onto my emotions and feelings with my psychotherapist.
We did an exercise with drawing what I am feeling and how I feel about those emotions he play classical music while I was doing this with my permission and I was grateful he asked and then after he asked me way am I so afraid to sit with my feeling and always feel the need to go to my para's to express what I am feeling. When the session was nearly over he asked me to sit with them for a while and see if I can resolve myself what I am feeling.
This will be beneficial to me now as I am in a place to listen and I don't depend on my para's as much anymore. I think it will be hard to do this be have my journal and my own strategies in place but he is giving me more to focus on and I think his is much better.
Just a little insight that there are professionals out there that want to help. Don't loss hope when you are ready to ease your madd